i thought everything will be fine after wad had happened..
but mistakenly no.
i was so stressed..
den i even tol this person i will give in..
but den..
to my horror..
as usual..being spoil brat..
everitink is mi fault..
i dun noe y dis person tend to carik pasal with me..
i give in everitink..
dos who close to me..
or heard it..
i tried to stop the fite.
but its jus useless..
after another incident..
now another incident..
can u stop ur childish-ness?
im sick n tyred of giving in..
those who DONT KNOW THE WHOLE STORY..
plish dun anihow judge..
or else..
I WILL GIVE U TITE SLAP!!!
i wont tolerate any nonsense..

u can ignore me of all i care...
wanna delete me frm fb-frnester-msn
even blog?(kau ader respect tk?saper ajar kau pki blog?)
well jus do watever u wish k..
u fite with me because of dat person..
i give in..
now u fite another reason..
without waiting for mi explaination..
fine den..
i guess u believe wad other ppls say den frm me..
den jus delete me forever..

its damn sad..
wen u try so hard to work out tings to make it better..
but wad u get at the end of the day is jus despair n soorrrowwss..
hurt alot..

im not okay.
cos things happened and everitink seems to befall on me..
i wan to cry aloud.
cos everitink happened seems not at the rite time.

u trust stupid tagged..
tanx..
den dun trust me.
wanna delete me?
den i shall too..

im not childish.
i wont lock anitink..
unlike sum1.

well peeps..
stay tune..
im gonna move to another blogspot..
those jus hop by..
wanna me add u to mi guest list..
just email me.
look at left hand corner..
or search me at fb..
i will definiteli add u
=)
tc.

im soo much relax after cried.
=)

Labels: I HATE YOU, ME-MYSELF-RAI, One of the DAES

♥escape reality 10:35 PM

i am shocked..
totali annoyed..
worse still..
u r jus a fren of this person yet u believe..
wen u dun noe the real story..
i reali hate it..
wen pple love sided story..
worse if the story is frm their fren..
how about the other half??

i dun noe wad to say..
i dun even noe wad to do..
all i could do is..
crying..
i guess im good at it now...
it hurts so much..
cause pple dat dun noe the real story behind it tends to misjudge me..
tanx..
how i wish to get hold on u..
andAND scream at u LOUDLY..
telling u to shut up wen u dun noe the real story!!!

now readers..
u fully noe the reason y i always hide or avoid telling mi probs or watsoever?
its all because of this..
u tend to misjudge the other person easily..
its totali not fair!
at all!!!!
eventhough its mi fault..
or the other party..
as a human being..
try to avoid putting negative judging/remarks on whoever..
cos it sux to the core..
what if dat happen to u????
u like it wen pple believe the other person's tale but never heard frm urs????

andAND..
whats wrong having sum1 dat close as ttm(teman tapi mesra)???
isist it still as bff????
i can say other pple dat way..
but y must u aim at this part person dat way???
i hate it wen pple tinks dat dey totali aite..
its totali shit!!!

im giving u warning people..
especially the BABES...!!!(i noe exactly who u r sak)
PLISH STOP ACTING DAT U NOE K????!!!
cos u oni heard a half of the story..
jus 1 question frm me...
wad if these happened to u and everyone shun u away..
without wanting to noe the real STORY!!?
angry??
sad???
tink again bfr u act..

im being the nicest of all..
still people take advantage on me...
hais..
i dun know wad to say..
but i hope dat is part person reali open *** eyes and realise dat i care soo much..
dat i reali treasure ***...
in a life..
u have to give in..
but giving in too much also can make the other party take advantage on our sincerity..
am i aite??
if u dun agreee..u can raise out ur opinions..

well pple..
dis is jus another story life..
everyday's hassle..
so dun take to heart..
take this as a learning experience...
cheers
=)

ps:imy..i tried so hard to make us together..but to no avail=(

Labels: ME-MYSELF-RAI

♥escape reality 10:04 PM

im posting this to all babes especially those who r alredi together 4 many years with their bf..or jus STEAD..or even jus BROKE UP..

stand 4 ur rights..

thats all i can say..
never ever give faces to them wen comes to their mistakes..
cause u w'll get hurt..(trust me)

andAND
to those that acts like a "MAN' in the rship..while ur bf is the "WOMAN"..
I GUESS...
stop IT AITE now!!
c'mon babes.
we r born to be feminist..to be emotionallie helpless creatures..
but if u give this"norms" to the boys..
u will end up shouting back at urself..
cause wad..
we gals r not meant to b 'guys'..
just face the reality..
we r not STRONG..

andAND
4 hunks out dere..
don ever take ADVANTAGE on ur gf..
no matter in financially,physicallie,emotionali or even sexuality..
once a gal storms..there will never be a "SORRY SEEMS TO BE THE HARDEST WORD" frm them..
plish atleast sit n talk face to face..
simmers down that EGONESS in u guis..
it wont bring u anywhere..
in fact..
pple will sees u as a COWARD..
adleast listen to watever they wan to express..
wen they says they "LOVE U DEARLIE N FOREVER"
better dun lose that opportunity..
it means dat the gal jus wann the oni u n EVERY PART of u in her life..
gd luck den
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it seems dat watever happens for this few weeks reli knocked out sum senses on me..
i believe watever happens..
challenges..
are just another hurdles dat i oredi faced off..
quite risky i guess..
but adlest i realised dat..
LOVE doesnt bring to a end..
in fact FAITH-TRUST-UNDERSTANDING & CARE r the essential in love..
well watever uh..
will update wen im free...

meanwhile..
im looking forward to mit bf..
i miss u bf..
muax

Labels: ME LOVE U, MUHAMMAD RIDHWAN

♥escape reality 2:35 PM

me+u=us..
ridz+raiz=ridzraiz..

okay dats lame..
yes i noe dat..
kind down-stress-
shld i say bad luck??
yea..
i down with fever n flu..
den failed mi assessment..
plus another burden frm sum1..
den SA nite coming..
wah..
mi body system is like giving me a signal..
plish bring me out of reality..
heeeeeeeeeelllllllllllllllllllllpppppppppppp!!
haha..

i wan ice cream...
bring me to ice cream parlour anyone?

Labels: ME LOVE U

♥escape reality 10:06 PM

i miss u..
yesh u..
get the picture aite now?
well lets have break for the moment..
i will wait for u..
plish instill the trust baby..
cause if im the oni person dat instill it all alone..
its not gonna help us in future..
i tried so hard to make u believe dat u r d oni gui dat i oni love..
trust u to tink otherwise..
but its k..
i miss u..
so plish dun let me be in this state for such a long period of time..
or else i will get sick..
i miss u baby..
yesh i do..
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Labels: ME LOVE U, MUHAMMAD RIDHWAN

♥escape reality 9:26 PM

i hate u..
yesh u...
cause u r the culprit for all mi sorrows..
wad shall i do now?
just sit down n look?
or fite back?
for all the years i known u..
u r still ________.
i guess people's say r true..
i shld leave this shitt long time ago..
but im stubborn..
i jus deserve this again..


nites!

Labels: I HATE YOU

♥escape reality 1:05 AM

i would love to end this MAY season asap..
i jus hate the way life is..
but i do try to be more reasonable and bersyukur dat until now..
im still alive..

i guess not all noe me well..
this is true..
sumtimes pple say watever dey tink is aite..(but actual fact its not)
but all i could do is jus silence miself..
even if i tries to defend miself no matter how hard it is..
dats make no diff at all..

i jus glance at this week..
everitink happens could be a reason..
but if this tries to continue every single week..
i guess..
i will surrender to life!

well sum of u wobders y i blabbering like this..
is for u guis to figure out..
and 4 me to noe adlest..
one werd..
watever!

will elaborate more wen im have the mood den..
adles i learnt sumting..
neevr ever trust pple..
even ur closed ones..
0.0


rai ralphena

Labels: ME-MYSELF-RAI, One of the DAES

♥escape reality 9:15 PM

oh mi shit!!!
this is wad happened if ages never blogg..
all the pics are so in mess..
i dun even noe where to staart with..
hmm..
i guess i start with A FIRST..
andAND end it with Z..
K??HAHA..
basicallie..
bfr bfr went to kl..
we went jln2..
oh ya..
went to town..watch taken semua..~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


as bf went kl for a week..27/4-4/5
left me here in spore alone..
but lukili i have a great frens of mine..
dadie yan reli teman me a dae..
we watched fridae 13th..
the sound effect is reli irritates me to bits!!
i hate it!!
but i reli enjoi dat dae with dadie yan..
no pics cos mi hp went off jus lik dat..(actuali never charge.haha!)

on 1 may..
hehe..
labour dae aite?
no sch aite?
so i mit mi baby dyla..
weee..
we jus hangout at tamp..
as usual window shopping kos i cant buy tings kos..haha
so we chill here n dere..we took pics alot..
pure coincidence she knew mi adik ang IQAH..
so small werld..!!!
everitink is interlinked!

after miting her..
i have another date..
date with mi classmates..
so mi classmates n me..(not all uh)
went pastamania to eat..(wah we got discount!!!)
den after dat we went..
phuture-zouk..
it was so damn packed!
haha..dun wan to elaborate more..
jus take a look at the pics!
mi class so supporting lah..
ilove them bits!!!
andAND i left around morning..and hangout with mi neighbouring frens..
and d best part was..I HAVE NOT SLIP AT ALL..
tros..g skola..haha..
den mlm g tmpt lain..
andAND SOWI 4E2..
=(


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bf returned spore..
and he bought me sum souvenirs while he at kl..
well i dun know whether to be suprised or cried..
cos i dun wan all the tings he gave cos..
nvm..
but i reli appreciated it lah..
erin natasha was dere too..
she so manja lah..haha
andAND sadly i tot tings will be alrite wen bf return..
but..
=(

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hmmm let me see..i went out with these two gilers..=)
wen eh?
it was pureli random..
i dun know why i say yes to tag along with them..
super funny lah..i guess its TUESDAY..
i guess lah..aite???
well bf dun wan to mit me..
so went out temankan shane li beg and extras..
mimi monster n i jus ikut je..
as we go along..
i realised attachment reli made us wad we r now..
klu tk jgn harap aku nk bual ngn dier..
andAND u noe wad..
both shane n mimi was so playful n mischevious..
dey saw_____..
so bad..
haha..
i reli enjoi goin out with them dat dae..


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wad can i say about mi grp this time round?
crazy slack babes..
we r the S.Y.S.
haha..
go n find out urself..
weeeeeee...
we r jus plainly ADLs..
haha..
andAND we had a new class photo recently..(ash plissss nxt time took with us!)
i jus love mi class to bits!!!


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what does a good opposite best fren forever called?
TTM...
yea..
mit ttm maksim..
in schlah.where else aite..
got break time we met..
since he gonna mit mi baby dyla dat aftrnoon..
he was so excited lah..
mentel eh..
haha..
we took alot of pics..
as usual..
rai love pics..
he blanja me drink at GLORIA jeans..
OKB pe..
but the best part is..
PURELI COINCIDENCE!!!
i was out den we mit up..
haha..
i dun wan to elaborate here kos..
it will be completeli insane for u readers to reli understand wad actuali happened on that dae itself!!
everitink happens on 8/5/09 is pureli COINCIDENCE..!!
AND I HATED IT TO THE CORE..!!!!!!
i almost wanna cried(actuali i cried lah)
oh aniwae prem is mi gui fren..
quite easy goin n outgoin..
he n his gal frens are awesomeli fun loving pple..
haha..
well i reli wanna thanks tai tai yiting for reli understand mi situation..
i was reli sowi to back off the event we actuali planned..
i promise nxt time k tai tai darling..
andAND bf..
u shld take note of this..
EVERYONE asks me to savage the rship..
so stop using dat ***** word no more..
i had enuf of it..
=)
jus enjoi looking at the pics..
theres alot to write..
but i feel so _____ out of sudden..
i guess mi sins are jus another part of rai ralphena..


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to mi baby boi..
dun ever tink negativeli if u dun wan me too..
u promised to be a lil bit understanding..
i give u mi ample time..
i give u mi undertanding..
i hope u reli treasure every moment of it..
now u noe who is he to me?
if u can accept me n ash so can u on other bois..
well u noe me..
i may be have alot of gui frens..
but remember..
no others guis can be replace u..
plish..
i dun wan us to be in entangled no more..
i love u bf..
andAND..
happy advance bdae..
da tua eh??
haha..
muax...
stay forever with me..






i tank GOD..
for wat had happened..
everitink..
im glad dat he still love me although im jus a pain in the ass..
i wanna cried...
="(

rai
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Labels: frenship, ME LOVE U, One of the DAES, TTM

♥escape reality 4:57 PM