i jus wanna give SHOUTOUT 2 these pple..

MUMMIE:tanx for the bear n letter..i reli appreciate it..dun wurrie..jus btwn me n u..u owe me a date k..?

CHA:dun kol urself "kpo"..ure not..tanx for viewing n reading mi horrendous-simple blog..u have mi permission to view as many as u wan..haha..

YANA(vp):babe!tanx for getting d tix for us..i hope nxt time it will b d 4 of us..haiz..y NAd cant eh..?haha..

WAN:b..plish get bck 2 me asap..its reali diff to share things wen we r not mit..but tmrw definitely goin out aite..?sowi for not owaes there 4 u..

HANs:eh dok..tanx lah last min mit me..i was so bored after the show..lukili u were dere wen i give a kol..tanx for rescue-ing me..

LAYAR ANDAYU having production just now..its a MUSICAL production,mind u!
me-yat-yana-rafique(did i spell wrong yana..?beg mi pardon)..
wawa-sihah-ilham-liza
hanafi also..
ash came along with his cuzz..
mariam with jim
suprisingly mummie n nisah was dere too..
da jdi satu family gtu..haha
but it was fun to see them..hehe..
well as i got the tix free frm yana..
so we tag along after we frm TIONG BAHRU..
mit CHIOP n DALIMA..
bet u..DALIMA is so adorable..haha..
so kiutelah dier..
she's 5 mth plus preggy..
hehe..
soon she gonna delivers dat lil active baby boi..
me n tasha had our lunch there..
seriusli shit..
i ate alot..
itupun tasha ask to have MUDDY MUD PIE for our dessert..(4 goodness sake..i jus eaten ice cream ystd)
so we had CHIX WINGS..
tasha had GARLIC CHIX PASTA..
whereas me having SEAFOOD LASAGNE(yummy)
den have STRAWBERRY CHOCO BLEND n NUTTY BANANA individually...
no CHOCO MUFFIN for me!:(

k back to the MUSICAL production..
well its kinda bored to me..
sowie about that..
the storyline..?
nah dun noe how to say it in a werd..
it jus takes me times to swallow the contents of the play..
but i cant deny that the MUSICAL,PROPS,LIGHTING/SOUND SYSTEM was marvellous..
superb..(but if can lower down the music when the actors r singing/reciting poem k?)
humour..?hmm good..TOO MALAY..like duh!its MCG(malay cultural grp)
overall..?OKAY..k..?haha
i prefer last yr den this yr..
but a good try on new ideas..
i hope STAGEARTS will do a better job nxt yr..
well..rai as LM..do ur best to lead ur pple...
YEAH!
well after d show..went hm as bf had to go uma kak long with other bros..so tot of going hm but den kol Hans to mit awhile..den went hm n now im damn tyred..
well...cant wait to COUNTDOWN n WELCOME 2009...
haPpY aDvANce NEw YeAr den!

CONFESSIONS:
1)FRI is a test..as usual i havent study it..(aik pe rai)
2)MON will be mi BCLS pract test..(damn it!)still not confidence..
3)TAUFIK!!! HAIZAD!!!im gonna c u soon n get a hell lot of ur pics n autograph..(can i get a hug/kish frm u..?haha)

so i tink..after COUNTDOWN..i studi k..?haha..
well i rather stop typing..
well wanna say tanx for those reali take notice n concern about mi whereabouts..
tanx so much..
damn appreciate it..(dun believe?den if dun believe........its up to u lah!hahaha..jk jk..)





M.I.R.A.C.L.E.S...HMMM..LET ME TINK IT LATER..

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♥escape reality 11:47 PM

well..suprised to see a quick new post frm me..?
i never had this intention to blog it but somhow rather mi heart kips tellin me dat i nid to let go things out asap..or else..i will face the consequences..
tings that happened lateli reali troubles me..
sumtimes i reali wonder if i AM born to have wat i have now.. ?
i may not come frma PERFECTO family..
but adlez this crazy-haywire family members r quite impt to me..(not now uh)

i have bf dat sumtimes..i dun noe..
wen hes happy,he will b nice to me..
but wen he's not..
its not dat im saying dat bf doesnt care for me wen hes unhappy..jus dat sumtimes..
i dun even noe his true emotions..
i dun even unstand him sumtimes..
i may not noe wad lies beneath his self..
he may b showing smiles to me..
but at the back..?

mi babies..(babes,hunks,acquintances..etc)
i dun even noe who r mi real best fren..
wat i meant is..
wen sum1 ask me who is ur best fren..?
i have to give a pause..
kos for all mi life..i have no BEST FREN..
kos all of them r a part of me..n they have their strengths n weaknesses..
so wen time to decide..
i blur out of sudden..
to me all of them r mi PRECIOUS BEST INDEED FREN..


BUT..FOR ALL MY LIFE..
i have been givin in..
make each of them(WHOEVER LAH)happy
wasted emotionally,physically,mentally..
its not dat im asking to pay back wateve i have done..
all i wan to see is dat they appreciate it for wad i have done..
i dun ask much..
I WAN THEM not to take advantage/take things for granted..
sumtimes i HATE being a MIDDLE MAN..
but mi mum says..
if both parties fite..dun jus side one party..
instead u shld nt side neither both of them..
thus until now i have dis prob..
serve me rite...
haha!
but no matta wad happen..
i hope..
theres no more secrets-deception-lies among us family-bf-frens-acquintances-etc...
i hate to be the last one to know..
n i dun wan/need any PATHETIC KECIAN FACE FRM U GUIS..
all i wan is the truth.
it may hurt a lil..
but trust me..
i am one of the gals dat able to take any sarcasim frm any of u..
well.
im kinda hopeless aite..?
haha..
nah..
it jus dat im lil bit suprised d way things happened in life..
i hope deres sumting called TRUST that can instill in us..

well..
it seems ages i have been typing.
gdnites den mi love..


ps:i've let the turtles in the pond swallowed my tears..now im reali sad..they are DOUBLE-HAPPINESS
(extracted frm JOY LUCK CLUB)

m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s..i fil like...nah its k..

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♥escape reality 1:14 AM

sch doesnt seem WOW 2 me!!

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♥escape reality 12:09 AM

lazy to update..
spent time with bf frm 2 plus at abg DEAN's hse..
fold jersey..
eat NASI LEMAK(ada sambal udang..yummy)
den watched TRANSFORMER
help kak LONG with the curry puffs
den watch ROMEO N JULIET..
DEN DATS ALL..
WEN HOME..
DUN wish to talk about it..
im jus pissed off..
i tink i nid a break..
tata!!!
tmrw sch..
SUX BIG FUCKING TIME!!!
NYTX..
MUAX


ps:mi fault eh?

m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s..?forget it..

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♥escape reality 11:16 PM

IM OFFICIALLY BORED..
i cant believe dat..
1)im still at HOME..saturdays are mi FUN day!
2)sch starting this mon..
seriusli shit..im not in the mood to go to sch..
with presentation still goin on..
bcls pract test..(this for sure is a MUST pass tingy..or else...)
OPEN HSE(but atleast HAIZAD IMRAN will b in sch!OoOoPpsss)
attachment starts on 12 jan(for heaven sake..y on EARTH must they torture us..?)
exam..dun tok about it lah..
i find that my life is been pushed around..
is this dinamakan takdir..?fate..?
how i wish i can plan it MY WAY n happen-ed naturally..
sux mani2 times...
n d most fuck-up is dat..
MY GORGEOUS 19TH BDAE (23 FEB)IS ON THE SAME AS MY ATTACHMENT..
ARRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
PLISH SOMEONE..RESCUE ME DAT DAE..
BRING ME TO SOMEWHERE DAT I WONT THINK OF NURSING FOR A MOMENT..
WELL..
i dun ask alot..
but how i wish someone showers me with dslr or nikon cool pix camera..
den i tink i will b happy..
the rest i will manage mi self..
cheh cheh rai..
byk spelling eh kau..haha

well bf played soccer jus now..
at GREENVIEW SEC..
lost 2-1..
its k den bf..
nxt time lah eh korg..

jus now watch this HINDI film..weeeeweee...JANNAT(I dun noe if it spells dat way)
well i kinda like the storyline..i cried k..but lil bit lah..touching babe!how i wish i can help mi loved ones if he reali in addiction state..but choi!haha..
oh ya..ystd i blog hopping n saw this website uh.
but i wont tell the person's identity..
wen i read it..
omigosh..
i cant believe dat my IDOL is fucking _____(fill in the blank)
how could IDOL cheated..esp to the loved one..
if i were in that loved ones' shoe..i definitely will sepakteranjangmakihamun to IDOL..
HAIZ..too bad..although IDOL did that..IDOL still mi number 1 in that area..(contradicting eh?)

i tink i have to put mi "HOLIDAYS MOOD"in a low mode..Mon starting of sch..arrrggghh..
i better stay revising sumting or else during attachment..aku bet aku yg melalak..haha..
well.dats all folks..
gtg..
rai understands the meaning of PATIENCE.

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♥escape reality 8:30 PM

its fun to be a lil gal

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♥escape reality 9:50 AM

i reali wan to post this..
im wanting sumting to happen to my life aite now..
sumting dat make me go wow!..
sumting dat reali breaks me..
but still i wont care..
well..
i have this "no feeling"...
senang kata uh..
takde perasaan uh..
well..im better den sum gals dat tk tau nk pki d "rite feelings" at the rite time..
aite..?
i dun mind wat would likely to happen..
kos im 1/2 prepared..
for the worse or the good..
im dun even wan to cry..
sad..
depressed..
psych..
all i wan to do is laugh..
a good laugh..
telling miself..
u deserve it!
2009 is around the corner.
i wont have any resolution cos wenever we plan-strategies-watever shit..
we tend to go to another directions..
so i declare miself..
i wont have ani resolution..
except to accept the real me..
its hard..
but i reli tryin to accept it..
im starting to love miself..
im not afraid to voice out..
im may seen wild..
but deep inside..
im soft...
i owaes give chances to pple around me..
until they start to take tings for granted..
its k..
i dun lost anitink..
all i need is in return a good hugs,tankiues..
dats all..
i dun nid hypocrites in mi life..
such a backstabbers..
no one's perfect!i know dat..
but dun use this quote as a opportunity..
its not a good weapon at all to protect urself..
indeed a stupid excuse..
well wad can i say..
kip doin with ur tactics n u will end up doom-ed!
haiz..
so sad..



k..jus now went to airport to study with bf..
but suprisingly we sat at GLORIA JEANS..
had our BLUEBERRY BAGEL and COOKIES N CREAM..
yUmMiES!!!.
plan-ed to study..
but ended up do other stuffs..
haha..
den we headed to T3..
bought groceries..headed mi hse..
sent the tings den went to bf's hse..
everyone's dere..
hmm..
i do mi shoes..
i bought white shoes..
n i did the design miself..
trust me..its so cool..
im proud of it..
kata rabia!hahaha..
den went home after eating..
well..
if i make u angri bf..imjus typically sorie...






m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s..plish gimme him the lite!!

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♥escape reality 2:24 AM

YESTERDAE..
went sch to mit SARA(SENIOR) to discuss about logistic tingy..
im glad she willing to tell me tings dat im noe familiar on..
hey!tanx anwae..
appreciate it alot..
den help tasha(president) and yana(v.president) with the clubrm..
i bet the room is becoming sumting lik..hmm...home..?
haha
but it reali makes me happy to c dat the rm is clean n tidy..
about 3 met bf @ bugis..
we headed to TONG SENG coffeeshop to mamam..
well..
i got miself a sliced fish soup again..
i cant resist the taste..
haha.
worth it k!
ampai burp Mcm BABI..
haha
well den we bought caps for both of us..
if u wanna see it..
look @ bf's blog..
i got miself the pink grey..while bf took the black white..
we walked around..
nuting to buy..
all not nice for the time being..
so we headed to bf's hse..
berlambak org dtg..
so me n bf duduk dalam n edit his blog..
k bf..i stay with u n bros till 10 45 k..i pai uma 11 plus..
aper je..
dun noe to c time pe..?haha
so now..
im still dun noe wad to do..
but goin to airport soon..
hmm...
i tink betta go n get readi..
well..im not goin to put all the pics frm alumni nite t0 sis outing..
but if im HAPPY..den i shall put the pics..
btw i love mi CUPCAKES!!!!
yummmies





m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s....waiting him to realise it..

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♥escape reality 11:59 AM

k let me start with this..
today was fun-sad-geram dae 4 me..
well..
sis outing went okay..
kos sum tarik diri..
dun wanna elaborate that..
so end up me-eryn-lyna-lysa-amirah
like incomplete gtu..
k never mind..
so pagy2 mit alysa to buy the things to make cupcakes..
den went to amirah's hse to bake the cakes..
wow..!!!amazing..
it reali turns good sak..
cannot believe it sak..
i will post u d pics soonn......
so proud of us..
weeeeweeee...
well..
den mit the rest @ botanical garden..
it was like dun noe wad suprise..
but we do enjoi..
den suddenli we plan to watch soccer..
SINGAPORE vs VIETNAM
k this is reali shit..
im reali not happy with the score..
VIETNAM jus won b'cos of the 'KESIAN' score..
if not SINGAPORE da menang da..
its k SINGAPORE..
atleast im proud dat u guis reali fite till d end
i adore u ALAMSHAH..INDRA..REDZUAN..
and others...
TEAM SINGAPORE..
nxt yr k..?
haha..
k dun tok about it..
nxt is...
we go makan ad SIMPANG BEDOK after send lina..
k well i admit it..im angry kos firstly SINGAPORE didnt win..
n den sumting happen last min dat ader tk jdi turn up..
k its k..
had tom yam mee..
nice!
k..
random speaking..
i miss bf badly..
it has been a week dat we never mit..
cause of drama..den class bbq-nite cycling
den ystd watched BISIKAN NADIM..(well done BUSU!!)
n todae sis's outing cum dun-noe wad outing..
haha
i miss n love bf..
bf..
plish mit up today..
i wan to crie..
haiz...

well elaborate more den..till here..
nytz..

















m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s doesnt happen....

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♥escape reality 1:06 AM

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♥escape reality 1:33 AM

OKayYyYyYyyyyyyyyy..
i reali have not time to elaborate the fun part..
haha..
mi class had bbq ystd..
den at nite we hadour FIRST EVER 0722 NITE CYCLING..
cool or wad...
i reali lik it..
although its damn tired..
im enjoyin it ever sec of it..
d fun part..the excitement..
the fuck-ed up..
the no-mood face..
the realxing mood..
weeeeweee
will elaborate more after mi alumni nite!!!!
and it will be in few hrs later!!
aarrrghhh..
haven mentally prepare...!
oh shit..
gtg..
well..
kip playing ur "games"
n u will get it soon frm me..
den frm dere..
dun label me as a "BAD GIRL"..
i had enuf of it..
k.
signin off....





m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s..?cant be bother aite now..!

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♥escape reality 3:34 AM

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♥escape reality 12:32 AM

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♥escape reality 5:54 AM

guess wad..?!
haha
i changed again mi blogskin..
now the skin look simple n plain..
but kinda of nice..
how i wish i can change dat pic frm d couple to me n bf..
weeeweee :)
so anyone see mi blog..jus comment..
i mean nice comment..
dun like it..?
jus GET LOST..
EASY AS a-b-c..

maybe sooner..im gonna edit the skin again..
waaaaaa
so the FICKLE-MINDED eh kau!
haha
i wan to change sumting..
catchy-sophiscated-gorgeous..
hahaa!!!!
rai's crazy..
crazy over skin.!!!
well..
i cant wait 251208..
not oni for christmas..
it means dat i wont have to survive with lil money animore..
omigosh..
can u believe dat i've been surviving with a meal per day..?
deserve a tap at ur back rai!!!haha..
actuali..im training to consume wad act mi stomach requires..
other den dat..
i nid to look out..
or else..
sumone will kol me MOK!
BOYOT lah..
PIG lah..
BONCET lah..
haha
hmm...
tmrw i feel lik goin to beach lah..
dun noe y..
hahaha
kla..
gtg..



i kinda mish the previous skin..
haha..
but this one nice pe!
rai loves skin changin!
haha!




p.s.:miss-ed him again!




m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s..............shall thee..?

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♥escape reality 2:07 AM

well wad can i say..
im not gonna elaborate on sat..
dun ask me y..
dun eva ask!


friday-12/12/08

well let me wish this bdae gal
FATIMAH...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAL..
STAY HAPPY AND SMILE OWAES..
tanx for being such a wonderful fren..
without u..
i dun tink mi attendance will be 100%..
weeewweeee



so let me start with friday..
im done with behavior modification and leadership presentation..
it may not be mi favourites!
BUT HEY..
not bad for them..
even doin leadership presentation..
the so semangat PAP
never sound lah..
he angguk agi ader..
in a way he agrees with wateva i say..
weeeewweeeee
k no more stress..
but another streesssss....
1)alumni nite
2)MENTAL HEALTH presentation
3)BCLS PRACT----btw i PASSSSSSSSS 4 mi theory!

after that..
mit bf..
well..so SWEET-CARING of him
although its not expensive..
but it so NICE of him..
to cook sumting for me..
HE MADE A PIZZZZZZZA!!!!
BOUGHT ME ICE CREAM..
MOCHA NESCAFE..
maybe others tink..
wala wei..so cheap..!
but tink again..
bf reali noe every details of wad i lik..
weeeweee..
except no PRAWNS on pizza..haha!

so after eating dat 'mini food'
we headed to TM..
decided to watch hindi movie..SHAH RUKH KHAN k!
but full lah..sum more u wan to sit first row..?
so we bought tix to watch IGOR(eee-gor)
wen at first i tot the story line is kinda of normal kind of kids stories.
but hey!
the movie is so innovative lah..
i even scared with the evil tingy..
haha
can u imagine dat..?
den after dat...
we chill out for a while..
btw..
tanx soo much bf..
for making the mini tingy and the movies..
so AWESOME of u..
muax

i wan more k!!!haha





m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s happen again..

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♥escape reality 6:54 PM

I was so close by nature to crie out mi tears..
i dun noe y..
but it seems dat things r not expected to be like i wan..
instead it makes me tink more harder n deeper..
wad will happen to mi life ahead..?
will i still be with mi loved ones..?
nah..deep down..
the answer lies on the flat surface..
its so perfect!
but jus on the surface..
misconception of lies..
i cant deny dat..
well..
tryin to figure out whats actuali botherin mi self..
been tinkin hard
i tink its d time to act it right now..
dun wurie..
i will..
soon..




ps:tanx kak long and abg dean for the SWENSEN treat..so kind of u pple.

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♥escape reality 1:27 AM

i changed the skin again!
after quarrelin..
i will owaes changed it..
now the skin lik (FILL IN TH BLANK URSELF)
DUN NOE WAD TO SAY..
but its kinda of cute isnt it..?
haha..
bf ure forgiven
but if it happens again..
den 4get it..





m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s mit happen again..

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♥escape reality 11:45 PM

jus sux to the CORE!!
HARI RAYA HAJI..?
DUN wanna say it..
malas nk elaborate..

bf is reli too much..
we planned to mit evening
but to his reason..
theres pple cumin to his hse..
fyn den..

now sms-ing me tellin me dat hes goin to town..
with his family..
lik wad #@$%
k pause..
im too unreasonable..
but hey!
den wat d point of planning with me if u cant make it..
i hate plans..
i started to hate plans..
so whoeva wan to tri havin plans with me..
BIG FAT F***IN HOPE!!!!
I dun wan plans..
how i wish jus now..
i hangout with mi guifrens..
fuck lah..
wastin mi time studyin-doin project..
dun wan to mit said lah..
no nid to PLAN..
DEN NEVA SAY SOWI!!
I HATE WEN PPLE NEVA SAY SOWI WEN DEY DID WRONG..
FUCK OFFFFF!!!!
JUS pardon mi vulgarities..
i reali cant control it..
feel shit k!!!
if i reali noe it gonna happens..
i will jus drop by @ mi fren's werkplace..
by now..
we r chillin with sum cigars n mocha frappe..
bf u r jus too much..
wen u wan to learn ur mistakes..?
tol me dat u will try o understand me
but HEY!U R NOT EVEN TRYING..
Wen on earth r u goin to do it..?
dun let mi heart each dae passed by with cruelty n loneliness..
i jus wan u to understand me..
even if its a bit!
aRGGGGGhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..
sum1 help me..
i kinda hate of rship..
doesnt bring nowhere..
all we could do is fite-reconcile-fite..
no compromise at all..
im damn tyred..
dun u..?








WELL..i tink im kinda of sux 4 awhile..
its k den..
i tink i betta say sowi to him..
for wad..?
not mi mistakes anwae..
jus wait he say sowi..
bet u he will neva say sowi..
all he will say..
NOT MI FAULT..
WTH..
I NEED HOT CHOCO plish..
f.@.t online plish.!!!!
i nid to tok..
bfr mi u-noe-wad nite happens again..





m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s let c if he say sowi to me..

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♥escape reality 8:21 PM

yesterdae was a bit wrecked-awesome dae for me..
supposed to go out around 2..but that bf of mine had his soccer game..
&&#%#&(@!!
its k den..
mit around 7pm..
headed to doby ghaut..
to FORT CANNING GREEN!
4 the CHUNK FEST..
of BEN N JERRY..
love-peace-ice cream..
the band totali superb..
ice cream..?
lik duh..
me n bf owaes have this lil fite over the cookie dough..
while me video-ing
he feed me & didnt realised that all the ice cream r mostly in mi mouth..
haha..
left with him a tiny weeny lil bit of ice cream..
well after dat..
headed to bugis to buy a new shoes/slippers cause of the wet mud..
it ruins mi shoes..!
den we headed to our makan spot..
ARTISTE coffee shop lah..
eat like pig..
huahauaha..
after eating..it seems too early to go home..
so we walked frm bugis to town(orchard)
fun!
talk-scold-camwhoring
well../
bf so sowie..
i have mood swings
so sowie..
i didnt mean to hate him..
u noe dat..
awww..
well..
shld hangout more bf..
k gtg..
watchin wildchild..
weeeeeweee

PICS WILL BE UPDATED ONCE IM IN A GOOD MOOD..TADA!





m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s exist?

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♥escape reality 3:59 PM

im kinda dun noe wad to say expression..
im jus tyred..dats all..
tmrw will be pharmaco presentation..
but jus oni 1 time we rehearse..
lik wth..
but i trust mi members..
we can do it!!k apart frm this presentation..
i love bf lateli...
dun noe y..
dun just ask me..
we have been spending alot of time togetha..
apart frm sex lah pple..
we went out..hangout..chill out..
hmm..
wasting our time together..

jus went to VivO ystd..
we bought ben n jerry's ice cream..
yummy!
chocolate chips cookies dough..
fuyoh..
bf ate lik pig..
gobble all the dough..
oink..oink...
haha
den we went down to bugis to buy his beg..
hmm..quite nice bag..simple.
to me lah.
den headed hm..
cant stand the heat..

well lateli im so tyred.
jus reali no mood..
can i quit sch..?
i cant concentrate dat well...
i dun wan to STTTTTTTTTTTTTTYDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDY..
STUDY K..?
I HATE SCH..
but I LOVE MI FRENS...kk..
stop here..
start to spout nonsense..
weeee
wwwwwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee




lame rai..




m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s MAY exist soon

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