went IMH jus now...
had a great time dere..
got this woman uh..
say to others dat im having child..
haha
mayb bkos i wear dress dat look lik pregnant
haha
well jus cant believe dat theres sum pple r not fated to have a gud life..
mdm kumari was so nice dat she blanja us lunch
tanx cher!
we talk-gossip-lament
haha
oni us noe about it


den straight to hm wen bf is sleepin
jus dun noe wad to say
can i hav bf dat wakeup wen i want him to?
lalalaaala


well wake up kinda late..
blame to bf..
planned to go out den neva happen
hurhur
its k

tmrw goin out..
to tink again
im owaes d one who pleased pple..
haiz..
wen can d dae sum1 caress me..?
hopefuli soon..


jus not fair..
ystdae just k..
now tings start 2 turn sour..
eveytime u accused me..
den wen will it b the time dat u will say MI FAULT?
well jus mi luck isn't it?
its k..
rai is living in a werld dat pple take advantage on her..
well wad can be said..
jus sit n hope dat miracle will tri to settle dis prob of mine soon..
jus soon..



m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s..where on Earth r u?

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♥escape reality 1:53 AM

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♥escape reality 12:50 AM

tings happen has a reason..
maybe directly or indirectly on us..
it doesnt matter wen it wanna happen
it jus dat we take it for granted..
as usual..
human..


jus wen did i relis dat tings r startin to become messy..
jus wen did i relis pple r keeping tings frm me.
jus wen did i relis dat ur frens r jus a plain frens...
jus wen did i relis dat swit loving pple turns to b hypocrite n motherf***er..
like jus wen..?


where were u...
wen i nid u the most
wen i nid to shed mi tears
wen i nid ur shoulders to lean on..
jus wen were u..?


jus relis dat frenship-rship
doesnt even matta to u den
wen u r jus one big shit...
jus a totali shit..


wen can i eva say yes to u..?
wen can i eva throw miself to u..?
wen can i eva say dat ure foreva mine..?
jus wen..



life is so full of deception-lies-
wen u give in..
sumone will take in..
but too much of givin in n no taking in..
is jus a piece of shit..
jus like WTF!
yet life reali shows the real of pple around me..
how amazing the life as a human being..


well..got to stop here..
gonna mit tasha for our mission!
haha..
will update soon den..




m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s..jus wen will i stop askin for miracle..



ps:i enjoi ystde..jus u n me..full of nonsense..:)

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♥escape reality 11:33 AM

u look gud to me..haha

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♥escape reality 11:39 PM

OKAY..this two movies need to b watched!!!kos firstli WILDCHILD seems to b promising story. akak mean girls gtu seh..haha..but the actressess dun seem awesome to me..den BEDTIME STORIES must also watch cos ADAM SANDLER!haha..maybe quite funny..aite?



well supposedly to study lah..but for heaven sake i study awhile den my eyes were glued to the SIDNEY WHITE..fun-awesome..as usual..amanda bynes..haha!KIUTE LAH..SARAH is BIATCCH!!

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♥escape reality 4:40 AM

am i..?
am i able to hold u tightly in mi arms?
am i able to see the smile on ur face for the last time?
am i able to be with u for the last moment?
am i able to tell you how much i need u and i dun wanna lose u ever again?
am i able to tell u once again dat im urs forever?
am i able now..?


can i..?
can i have one last dance with u?
can i have one last sealed kiss frm u?
can i say how much impt u r in mi life?
can i have one last touch of u bfr you're gone?
can't i..?

missing u by mi side..
wishin u were..
lying on mi laps..
staring at u..

jus waiting here all alone for u to cum and pick ur lil princesh..
will keep on waiting..
waiting..
waiting..
jus for u..



aint i too mushy..?
nope..
im not..
jus dat my heart is sharing its romantic feelings..





lame eh rai..
stop it can?
can..
waiting for prince to get me once again...
kuangakuanga..
haha




m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s would happen...yesh.

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♥escape reality 6:27 PM

tanx god..
i pass mi lab skill test..
but i noe dats wasnt reali impressed!
yeah!
adlez i managed to pass inspite of few practices were given okay..
btw those who failed..
plish darlings..
dun give up..
the rest of us will support n cheer for u..
go 0722..

now the only things need to b stressed are the upcoming test and presentation..
n yah!
conduct a lesson during drama pract..
haiz..
can i take a week break..?
haha..

im glad things are much better in a way..
n ya..
dadie dun wurie..
she just a slut..
tada!


m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s..tanx..

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♥escape reality 10:56 PM

IM JUST SKARED..
BF reli sweet..
came to sckool jus now n accompanied me..
nice!
haha..
btw yiting darlx..
be strong k..
we all believe in u..
hackare dat mentali retarded teacher..haaha!

im skared for the test..
wish me luck...


xoxo..
i nid sum care n love..




m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s...i reli nid u tmrw test...amin..

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♥escape reality 1:25 AM

i nid sum love n care aite now..
ishk..
so sad seh..
jus wonderin wad will happen to this werld ahead..?
no love n peace..

happen to study todae with bf..
but bf jus woke up..
haiz..
dun wan to say anitink..
but wondering wad he done at nite..
n y slept late?
jus wonderin..

can i change the situation aite now..?
instead of me lovin sum1..
can sum1 lovin me deeplie?
can lah..
haha..:(

it seems dat i missing sumting..
bu i dun even noe wad isit i missing of..
bad aite..
i mite not have a perfect life
but i tink i have a gud life..
i have a smart brain(sumtimes)
i have a dun-noe-wad to say family
i have a irritating-tkd feeling bf..
i have fab-gorgeous frens..
so am i reli lucky..?
more den enuf..
tanx to HIM..

btw..KUSH mi blackie-cute cat finalie home!
yeaH!

p.s:anyone willing to buy for me a hot pink bag!i definiteli gonna love u den!hah!

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♥escape reality 6:11 PM

ANNOUCEMENT!!
IF ANY OF U SEE A BLACK-GREYISH MALE CAT..
PLISH KOL ME..
DESPERATELI MISS HIM..

well i lost mi cat..
haiz..
usuali dad will let him take sum 'air' outside hse..
but now he nowhere gone..
haiz..
so sad k..
where can i find u kush..


haiz..
i miss u kush..
boo hoo..boo hoo..
plish cum back hm..
everyone mish u..

k cum bck to reality..
me-ash-mariam-hazim(mariam's lover)
planned to watch MaDagascar 2 @ the cathay..
but unfortunateli..
tickets sold like goreng pisang..
so lazy to try other cinema..
we decided to hangout @ ecp..
well ash's idea den..
he blanja us sumore..
haha
tanx nyah..
den haiz..
betta dun say it here..
oni us noe wad telah happen..
hopefuli u r k den..
after ash left..
the rest of us went jln2 at the beach..
no place to sit so we u-turn..
chill out den at tcb&tl..
haiz..
tok-gossip?-share tings..
haha
can't believe dat hazim noe sum udak frm mi area's hse..
cool or wad.?
haha..
well..
after dat we headed to our hm respectiveli..
seriusli shit..
too much of Madagascar 2..
too much of everitink..
but atleast we do spend time aite togetha..
basicalii..
ash..
train urself to selik-menyelik bla riding k..
haha..
but overall gud ride..


hmm..well waiting to study with bf tmrw..
can we marry soon..?
haha...
so dat he can accompani me study 24/7..
haha..
haiz..
jatoh cinta lagi..
haha..
tak perlu k rai..


m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s..tanxs for ur miracles..

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♥escape reality 1:57 AM

it seems dat wat rules been set up last time doesnt applied aite now..
so sacrifise is jus a waste aite?
jus dun reali unstand wad reali matta aite now..
all i can say..
i nid a fuckin free time..
kos i reli in emotional state..
i dun wan to b hurt again..
n dun wan mi loved ones to b hurt too..
i jus wan the happie times we had bfr..
jus wondering wen will dis dispute to eva end..?
misunderstand to b wipe off frm our life..?
conflicts to vanish frm ourselves..?
jus wonderin..



m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s..once again i nid u

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♥escape reality 4:07 AM

i'm just glad dat adlas i able to meet bf..
i mean it has been 4 daes without seeing him n i tel ya..
i can go crazy..
its not easy k..
wen u reali fall in lurve with sum1 u love..

im jus glad bad daes r over..
n i will tri mi best to let tings go on by itself..
jus keepin mum on wad had happen..
wonderin wen we can reali unstand each other...

wateva it is..
im looking forward..
i nid to focus..
jus dun make mi dae turn bd..
dats all i ask frm u GOD..


I'M jus suprised dat mi bestie went RIHANNA consert ystd!!!
with her lover,AHMAD!!!
NOT FAIR..
i repeat AGAIN..
RIHANNA CONSERT!
JUs mi luck..
its k..
there will owaes another time..




M.I.R.A.C.L.E.S..TANX!

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♥escape reality 8:22 PM

im jus glad dat disputes between bf n me have ended..
amin.
im learnt frm mistakes..
and im still learning..
all i could say..bf is such a wonderful gui fren..
a waste if i lost him..(am i?)
hmm..
i missing bf..
jus for 3 daes we havent mit..
im oreadi lovesick..haha..
so lame uh rabia..
well wad can i say..
bf somehow rather interlinked in mi life..
without him i feel lost..
pple seems to see that im ignorant towards love..
but actual fact they r just totallie wrong!
im miss-lurve him more den he does..!
im being selfish..
dats because i hav mi own reason..
sumtimes guis dun unstand gals..
im jus a bad girl..i love to play around with emotions and expressions..
i jus love suprise..
yet sumtimes bf cant reali understand wat i wan..haha..
too bad uh..
dats y we ended up quarreling..
but no fuss!
we just ended the disputes..
n it wont happen again..
trust me..
jus wont happen again..
haiz..
i feel lik crying now..
bf..can i mit u soon?
i hate love..


theory test..basicali i have no comment cause..
i jus dun noe..
the paper aint too hard..
able to answer the questions..
hopefuli pass..
dats all..

next beban:
1)pharmaco class test(isn't it too serius?)
2)pract lab(i jus nid bf to b around)
3)presentation..(all straight in the weeks!)
4)bio pract test(y on earth must we studied micro bio?)


im jus wonndering wad will be mi life ends as?
foreva devoted nurse..?
do i get to marry bf n stay 4eva with him?
can i still able to mit mi darls wen we started to werk n have families?
will i able to take care of mi parents(its totali a must to me)

im jus hope..
hoping aite now..
im will be foreva with bf..
i cant describe the feelings..
but sumhow rather i nid him in sum part of mi life..
ridzraiz..



i jus loving him more..



m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s..im still waiting....

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♥escape reality 11:39 PM

im jus wondering wen can i reali have a gud time with mi loved ones..
i jus mish the old daes..
mish the time we shared..
memeories..
im not refering to bf..
im refering to mi 8 lil gorgeous..
it seems dat every lil piece of our frenship..
almost cumin to an end..
mira is finalie here..
not dat she disappeared..
jus dat time neve allow us together..
jus glad dat atlast we contact back..
so nxt plan..
sheesya..
chalet..
yeAHHHHhhhh!


well im hopefuli hope wateva dispute me n bf had..
to be cleared soon..
kos i hate fiting
n missin bf every single tick tok..
haiz..
so torturing..
but i prayed to HIM..
dat one dae both of us can reali accept each other strength n weaknessess..
i dun mind about wad other pple tries to break-trick-fool us..
i believe bf is belong to me in sum way..

ps:bf im sowie..u shld noe me..i accept the way u r..


k i gtg..nid to do sum revising..wish me luck den!
HOPEFULI PAPER wont b So AN asshole..
haha!





m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s...im will wait for u patiently..

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♥escape reality 8:05 PM

rid+rai

till death..

m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s plish appear again!

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♥escape reality 8:29 PM

where is GOD wen i reli nid HIM aite now?
im reli nid sum1 to cry over..
to express mi filings
to shower me with hugs n kisses
to lighten up mi dae
to wipe off the pain n tears..
i,siti rabia'tul' adawiyah, am such a fuckin loSER..
YEsh i am..

i jus cant say more.
wadeva happen it jus a lesson
maybe there's a reason behind it
mayb HE wans sum1 to cum n love me.
mayb the time hasnt arrived..
i will wait den..
even the old ones cum back..
im willing..
as long im being healed..
i am glad..
tanx!







m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s do happen!

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♥escape reality 6:40 AM

DIRECTLI SPEAKING.
I HATE MY LAPPY!!!

i jus hate it..
i was blogging and jus out of sudden the screen went TUP!
wateva uh..
i reali feel like throwing this lappy to the wall n den purchase the new lappy..haha..
fyn aite?

well basicalie it seems dat i nid to type wadeva dat i oreadi type jus now..troublesome seh!
it seems dat luck is reali not on my side.jus mi luck!haiz..
im jus hoping dat mi luck will cum back..
haiz..no luck during tasha bdae surprise..(a disaster surprise)
no luck on mi money..(lost 50 bucks)
no luck on sumting..yeah i feel sumting out of place..
or maybe sumting is reali missing..
wad isit actuali den?
ishk..cant take it uh..

i kind mish mi loved ones

1.bf-we do meet ups but den mit ups doesnt reali make us reali dat close..geddit?jus dat sumting is missing frm both of us..i jus missing him every single moment

2.nurril-kinda lateli mish dis gal..we r sechood frenz..we sit together..tok craps..share secrets..write poems.one ting we neve do is dat we neva compete with each other..she's smart anwae..hard werking babe..btw babe..gd luck darling 4 ur o level..

3.mi lil 7 gorgeous babes-oii..wen r we gonna mit up n spend time lik we used to..?plish dis time makin complete set..shld have chalet tau..haha..

4.nie random uh..i missing mi bros..ajat-haffiz-din-andrew-ayam..jus missing the past..the memories.esp during mi bdae celeb...haix..

wishing dat mi m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s will cherish me once again..




bf:im misssinggg u...geddit?

♥escape reality 11:00 PM

OCTOBER IS REALI @#$%^& mth to me..
im glad im leaving dat mth n neve turn back again..
jus my luck to face things all at a time..
frust-sad-angri-happy?-
all were mixed..
all i noe i feel lost..
no one understand..
not even mi love ones..

i understand ur concern a care(not to mention name)
although we r far apart frm each other..
i knew frm start u wan me to share mi probs with sum1..
but jus bear in mind..
it isnt easy as u tink..
d reason is..
each of us have unique life n different classes of probs..
thus to share mi probs is equalavent to sum who has same probs as mine..
geddit..?
kos i have tried..
dun tel me i didnt..
but i did..
it jus a simple shit..

thus to u..
i appreciate it veri much..
i hus hope mi life for this NOV will b atleast a better month 4 me to take it slow..
jus hoping pple will neva disturb me..
neva trick-fool-irritate me..
jus hoping..


one biggest fear in mi life is dat sum1 i reali love change..




m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s where r u.?

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♥escape reality 7:53 PM