im planning to run away frm hectic days..
i dun wish to see/solve probs..
all i wan to do is..
FLED...
i have estimately $300 aite now..
anyone has any idea wic best place for me to de-stress mi mind-soul-heart..?
i will b much more elated to have the idea given..
kos i dun wish to see any of probs..
im hating it..
im may b strong to others..
but no longer now..
im may b hard-hearted..
but im not dat anymore..
jus smplified it uh..
im starting to be..
soft hearted
fragile
dependence of others
ignorant

dont ask me y its happens to me..
kos i dun even noe the answer..(maybe i jus dun wan to noe the ans den.)

wen i nid sum1 dat reli close to my hearts they usually not there.
wen i wanna have their huggies n comfort, they disappear..
wen i wanna share my probs/feelings..they are always busy..
but wen it cums to them having probs/need help..
i owaes make miself free.
kos i owaes tink..
they deserve a good person to share/diclose/cry/laugh on their personal matters
wich is me..
but jus wonder..
y its owaes neva happen to me..

sowi to say.
sum will noe im secretive..mysterious in a way of not liking to share secrets/probs with them..
but wad can i do wen me myself dun wish to tok about it..
indeed im very bad in expressing it..
but deep down of my broken heart..
it jus say..
"i need you"

i missing the good daes...
i missing mi loved ones..
i missing every single dae dat were spent with them that closer to me..
i missing the bad times too..
i missing u..

attachment kinda okay to me..
nothing much to be told..
but im really panic jus now wen one of mi pt run away..
me n mi fren had to rush down..
i searched n suprisingly she was sumwhere safe in the hosp premise..
i was angry-scared-relieved..
haha..
kos i do have another pt tat has oreadi ran away in the morning..
so can u imagine how scary is dat..?
its fun actuali to see different kind of pt having diff illness..
sumtimes it breaks mi heart to see them in that condition..
but sumtimes it makes me laugh the way they react n behave..
atleast im not bored to death during mi shift..
i hate attachments cause..
i cant able to meet BF..
n den we r far apart..
we rarely call..sms..
but oni in msn..
or weekend..
it sux man..
haix..
i dun wan to be a nurse..
haha..
jk den..


well..im still nt recovered frm sickness.
im having on n off fever...
im so weak..
tired easily..


tmrw bf's soccer match..
hope they can win den..
i beleieve they can do it..
GO 4 IT BOIS!!


i got to stop here..





m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s...
jus face it..
i have to be strong again..

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