well..suprised to see a quick new post frm me..?
i never had this intention to blog it but somhow rather mi heart kips tellin me dat i nid to let go things out asap..or else..i will face the consequences..
tings that happened lateli reali troubles me..
sumtimes i reali wonder if i AM born to have wat i have now.. ?
i may not come frma PERFECTO family..
but adlez this crazy-haywire family members r quite impt to me..(not now uh)

i have bf dat sumtimes..i dun noe..
wen hes happy,he will b nice to me..
but wen he's not..
its not dat im saying dat bf doesnt care for me wen hes unhappy..jus dat sumtimes..
i dun even noe his true emotions..
i dun even unstand him sumtimes..
i may not noe wad lies beneath his self..
he may b showing smiles to me..
but at the back..?

mi babies..(babes,hunks,acquintances..etc)
i dun even noe who r mi real best fren..
wat i meant is..
wen sum1 ask me who is ur best fren..?
i have to give a pause..
kos for all mi life..i have no BEST FREN..
kos all of them r a part of me..n they have their strengths n weaknesses..
so wen time to decide..
i blur out of sudden..
to me all of them r mi PRECIOUS BEST INDEED FREN..


BUT..FOR ALL MY LIFE..
i have been givin in..
make each of them(WHOEVER LAH)happy
wasted emotionally,physically,mentally..
its not dat im asking to pay back wateve i have done..
all i wan to see is dat they appreciate it for wad i have done..
i dun ask much..
I WAN THEM not to take advantage/take things for granted..
sumtimes i HATE being a MIDDLE MAN..
but mi mum says..
if both parties fite..dun jus side one party..
instead u shld nt side neither both of them..
thus until now i have dis prob..
serve me rite...
haha!
but no matta wad happen..
i hope..
theres no more secrets-deception-lies among us family-bf-frens-acquintances-etc...
i hate to be the last one to know..
n i dun wan/need any PATHETIC KECIAN FACE FRM U GUIS..
all i wan is the truth.
it may hurt a lil..
but trust me..
i am one of the gals dat able to take any sarcasim frm any of u..
well.
im kinda hopeless aite..?
haha..
nah..
it jus dat im lil bit suprised d way things happened in life..
i hope deres sumting called TRUST that can instill in us..

well..
it seems ages i have been typing.
gdnites den mi love..


ps:i've let the turtles in the pond swallowed my tears..now im reali sad..they are DOUBLE-HAPPINESS
(extracted frm JOY LUCK CLUB)

m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s..i fil like...nah its k..

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