ryan rafael-rai ralphena

TO ALL READERS

2010-02-15T02:48:00.002+08:00

hi lovelies earthlings..
from this day effects..
i wont be blogging here often.(i still tho if i wan to)
check it out @

http://ladystyleshrihanna.tumblr.com

happy MONDAY!!!

13 feb 2010

2010-02-13T23:40:00.002+08:00

to tell the truth..
i miss going out with this person.
because of our busy werking schedule we always have to postpone it.
its damn sucks!
-.-

well werking afternn shift alone wasnt dat bad afterall..
i mean its kinda sucky at ferst cos deres no one to be with u dat shift.
but wit the staffs around me.
i dun mind at all.
sn shaliza was the nicest.
ayam penyet was awesome.but chili plish pedas.hehe
we took photos bfr serving meds.
stilll can have fun eh..
lol

tmrw tty thinking of to jb for awhile.
i agreed since dat someone who doesnt wan to go out wit us..
haha
i mean c'mon lah.
if u wanna go v's day wit me..
of course i disagreed.its not fair for some guis aite?
i rejected their offer flat sumore.
pfft.
den ask u nicely to hang out wit the rest nvr reply.
so cold blooded.
watever lah.
afterall if u wanna complain to others dat im fcuk up!
go ahead.
dey dun noe the other side of mi story..
i dun lose anitink syg..

15th gonna fly kite wit lina n lisa..
if d guis wanna join..
we dun mind.
den maybe wanna lepak wit prem for awhile.
or a least mit on tues..
sorry for that day!
mi fault.

to syira haizan:hey syg.aku reli sorie uh aritu tk le join clubbin.aku d nxt day keje.plish repli mi msg in fb asap so we cn make it dis end of mth..
to faisal:i noe u kinda busy.and sorry dat time unable to mit u..lets mit up soon..
to shak:im fcuking gonna kill u if u n mike not gonna mit us..haha..sms cepat lah.
to wan:stop being like dis n be good for once..lets go out??tanak sudah.

i had quarrelled wit this fren of mine.
wah..sakit sak hati..
kasi advice tnk ngar..
nnti da kene saper tlg kau??
ukan aku nk ungkit p dun make urself so obvious uh.
kau masi mentah n u dun noe world seh.
klu kene cekup.
kau brani tanggung mah??
sianx.
still got this kind of pple eh who dun appreciate friend's help.
up to u lah den.
no comment

♥rai ralphena♥

february

2010-02-07T09:27:00.003+08:00

FEBRUARY is already here..
im trying so hard to make this month a lil bit meaningful to my life.
but all i see is that more sadness is coming on their way
thus,i think i should jus let it be that way den.

meet up with dyla love ystd.
kinda short mitup since sha had to go werk at nite..
reli appreciated it.
we had our long convo.
and i miss the times we had.
but atlest we still contactable.
i love her alot.
shall mit up her again nxt week!weeee

its reli hurt wen some tryin so hard to avoid me.
i rather dat person told me dat we r no longer frens den kipin me figure out wther we r still frens or not.
like tak perlu ehks.

it was so nice of prem to owaes dere for me.
no matter late it was.
he still b awake at wee hrs just to entertain me wen im down.
i cant imagine if d past 6 mths i lost a great best bf!
same goes to maksim.
im glad we all r still frens.
i reli appreciate it.
mit u next week!

some ask me about v's day..
all i could say i dun celeb v's day.
but if u asking me whether dat day i have plans..
definitely aite..
its still a DAY to me.nothing much.
but seriusli.
idk who i wanna go out with..
its like if i go out with this person.
another person will feel rejected.
den wen i go out with this another person.
the rest will feel more rejeceted.
i guess i shld jus go out in bunch of frens or gfs!
den it will clear all the misunderstandin lah.
watever.tk perlu ehks.

prcp is almost endin..
but im super duper scared lah..
wad if i fail*touch wood*?
definitely i will b fcuking pissed off n down.
im fcuking bond wit a hosp.
jialat lah!
lets pray nothing will happen.
amin

23 febraury is loved!

♥rai ralphena♥

updates!

2010-01-24T22:01:00.006+08:00

23th JANUARY 2010
met up malay cliques.
the usual 4s..
ash kau senantiasa menghilang
so nvm
adlast we mitup since semua nga prcp..
ystd kinda chill session..
mkn at makansutra den lepak by the river..
den naik atas bumbung n lepak.
bual mcm2..
dri muda pai kau tua.
dri nga single pai kau ada anak..
haha
lol
den planning to go BATAM!
plish..
bkk sorry..
nxt time we shall come again
p yg paling penting
kiter akan gy ZOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
aku tak sabar weeeeeee
nk naik SPORE FLYER wlpun aku tnk naik.
nk ngok wayang
nk karaoke
nk mkn ice cream kt BEN N JERRY
all must do on FEBRUARY!!!!
aku suka!
kau suka????
weeeeeeeeeee
aku nk tukar/add sikit wishlist aku this year..
hehe

26th JANUARY 2010
-after seeing mi doc,tty wanted to watch THE LEGION.
so layankan je lah karenah adik aku..
its a routine for me to treat her every mth movie..
duit aku kuar.
dia happy.
haha..
we catched the 9 plus slot.
the story quite catchy..
i love ARCHANGEL MICHAEL.
hes so DAMN SACHOK UH!
haha.

27th JANUARY 2010
mit up with lil sisters..
infact yg ada its me-lina-lisa..
i know i know..
everyone's busy..
even aku superbusy woman pun.
aku ada time to mit mi dearies..
nvm lah..
jgn nnti aku nk kawin..
aku kene tanya korg dulu bla korg free..
well we mkn @ food culture bfr miting nurril.
NURUL AMIRAH was dere too..
i mean..its has been very long time since we mit.
and its reli so nice to mit n talk out our personal stuffs..
so the five of us lepak @ starbucks till 10 plus..
like everyone is werking the next day.
pfft.
i hate it lah.

29th JANUARY 2010
k paiseh to mi syg gf dyla n best sugar bf prem.
aku almost lupa about our date out tgther..
luckily i told u guis to cancel..
nxt week k??
klu tk wen all of us are free..
i miss u dyla babe.
tanx for owaes dere for me prem sugar.

30th JANUARY 2010
i had a good sat altho had to werk afternn..
its like mi FERST EVER SAT TO B WERK ON AFTNN SHIFT.
and i tot its gonna be sianx
but hey!
nice.
i jaga 1 whole cubicle minus 2 pts.
so its 12 pts lah tgther..
and all mi pts is super duper cute..
dey so irritating annoying dat sumtimes i wanna squeese deir face..
haha!
den got this pt can palm reading.
so i asked her to read mine.
hehe..
she said: U very clever.(like duh!mi chinese grandma passed down the genes to me.haha!)
U wont have prob in financial.even how hard r u..dere still another way u can earn bck..(its like org melayu ckp..duit tk putus dtg..)and the best part she said NANTI TUA..but we heard LAKI TUA.HAHA...d older i am,the more money i have.haha!so cute.she also said dat mi health is good but i will get one serius sickness prob but she said dun wurie i will get better..the best part i like to hear..i asked her.."AMAH.I MAARRY OR NOT??"She answered"of course lah!u have 1 n only husband..u wont marry ani other guis.only him!"
chey bah!haha..but i have to find the good kind hearted in a way to stay forever with tat person..so now i can flings around..later find the good ones den bwk kawin!haha.i gonna have 3 kids as wad she said.but i wan 2 KIDS LAH!how??haha..
so cute aite mi pt..

31st JANUARY 2010
-LATER goin out..goin to pierce again.see how lah..
and i reli hate some one who reli delete me off frm ___ life.
FINE!
told ya so.being nice to tat person.dis wad i receieved.fine lah.
jgn later said i cruel.im not listening.
just a bit sad lah.why i have to face dis ting again.tyred lah!
k watever..

well......
latest wishlist!lol

WISHLIST FOR 2010!!
1)BKK
2)BATAM
3)ZOO(NOW WHO WANT 2 go with me??)
4)MOVIE MARATHON
5)UP-CLOSE WITH TAUFIK BATISAH
6)JB
7)VANS SHOES
8)IPHONE/ITOUCH
9)UNIVERSAL STUDIO IN SPORE
10)BURBERRY/GUCCI/LV BAGS

hurhur..
berangan tak abis
p some wishlist akan jadi kenyataan..
yg lain cuma angan angan
haha

someone said wants to celebrate mi bdae.but now?
like real only.
pfft~!

i learnt something
never underestimate the pain u experience
endure as much as u can
cos at the end of the day u gain sweetness
=)

rai syg korg
mr forgetful is being missed
premmmmmmmmm...mit up soon
dyla love lets enjoi ourselves soon
maksim wen cn we mit up again??
shak baby u still alive??mit up wit mikey
ying love soon hangout k?
taitai yiting our date on 1st feb.!

blackie i miss u as usual.

goodnites!

♥rai ralphena♥

DOWN

2010-01-16T18:34:00.002+08:00

I'M LOSING YOU

the fact is im starting to lose hope in love again.
SCARED is wad i fear now.
LOST is wad i am now.
do anyone dere understand wad im suffering aite now?
i dun tink so.
i guess just let it be den.

i just hope dat on 23rd FEBRUARY 2010.
GOD shows me d colours of life.
the real people that love n enjoy being with me
afterall i suffering love-lust syndrome.
can someone help me?
just don nag at me.
im tyred.

i hate the way i am rite now.
the fact dat im starting to be ignorant.
starting to be helpless.
is dis a punishment from HIM?
and its like i have to endure it again n again?
im goin to be insane.
indeed now.

2010.
new year.
so new wish list aite?
can kind hearted people get for me this...
let mi dream come true again
1)THAILAND HOLS!i miss BKK
2)IPHONE/iPOD TOUCH
3)MAKEUP EYESHADOW 88 COLOURS
4)MOVIE MARATHON
5)UP-CLOSE WITH TAUFIK BATISAH
6)VANS SHOES
7)LV/CARLO RINO/BURBERRY/GUCCI/AGNES B

kays..
so how?
well im reli want all to happen reality..
but number 7 can opt out.
personally i can ask mi future hubby to buy me all branded stuffs..
-.-

i think just forget it.
told ya so.
too much expectations
den it wont happen.
better just dun ever dream of it.
pfft

i guess i nid a break.
lets go out soon.
i got to find wat to wear den.
but to where?
hah!

ps:the reality is dat im used being hurt.
so no point crying/moaning about it.
bah!

♥rai ralphena♥

sATURDAY NITE

2010-01-10T13:40:00.002+08:00

INFACT after wad u did, u"re still forgiven.

YESTERDAY after werk..
wen out with MUMMIE RIL.
met @MARINA SQ.
unfortunately tix sold out.
so decided to try @ THE CATHAY.
so yeah..
went dere.
bought 2 tix of DID U HEARD ABOUT THE MORGANS?
went for a quick chat @ STARBUCKS.
well the movie is hilarious n fun!
BOTH OF US had a great time laughing n laughing..
lol
after dat went to PS to eat..
its like late 9 plus..
but we still hungry..
literally MUMMIE RIL yg lapar..
haha
so we ate @ SWENSENS..
so yeah..
nxt time aku blanja kau k ril??
well
had a great talk with her.
as usual..
we have that similarities wen arguing n talking.
so no prob to be so OPEN..
haha..
well
now im having dis diarrhea plus feverish tingy..
i dun tink im goin abg zul tunang.
sianx

k gtg!
next outing!!
weeee

♥rai ralphena♥
haha!~

DONT ACT AS IF U KNOW!

2010-01-08T17:09:00.002+08:00

JANGAN STEP PAHAM LAH SEI.

i just cant stand people dat act as if dey noe everitink jus barely because dey noe a tiny weeny about that thing.
alamak.
like giving smack! at the head lah sei.
im not being MINAH(dats wad some peeps label me) but please lah..
dun make urself a fool to others can?
aiyo.
malu leh.paisey.
wad will others tink about u?
i mean literally aite now..
u wont give fcukin damn care.
but in future?
adleast give a tot lah sei bfr acting dat way..
dats y i cant be bother animore with d kinds bunch of people.
hackare with mi advise?
go ahead lor.
dun later regret den u tink i will syg again?
haha.
dere still such people livin on this earth uh?
lol
like malay saying: GASAK KAU LAH!(up to u lah!)
so the minah sak aku.
obmkjbmds!

this week shift is AWESOME despite some irritants.
but hey!
i enjoi every single moment in the ward.
TAI TAI YITING!!-I LOVE WERKING WITH U.shall have more of each other k?
NURSES(those on this week shift)-slack maut p tangan bergerak.tanx for the teaching esp
IV ___, report writing,faxing things n etc.
PATIENTS!-trust me.dey can be reali up to ur nerves..but wen dey noe ur name.remember u.thanks u.giving some treats.totali awesome..
afterall if i dun like this job,den i mite as well packed off mi things after serving 2yrs bond n disappeared!lol

with all these happens lately.
i cant be bothered with any nonsense.
so if literally u cant find me wen u nid me at the moment.
it means u jus leave a msg behind n she will probably answered it bck.
afterall im not cranky-hot tempered person no more.
adlest now TAITAI YITING understand my perspective of life.
U GO GIRL!ROX!
it depends on individual to accept me the way i handle life.
things dat cant be bothered.y wanna bother it?aite?
lol

infact.
tis is not the time to have rship.
it will ruined everi single effort.
trust me.
lets mingle.
xoxo

afterall i noe y u being like dat.
its LIFE!
cannot be bother!
haha..

ps:lets meet up soon k love.

♥rai ralphena♥

2 days hangout not enuf!

2010-01-05T21:40:00.002+08:00

2 days out with lovelies gf

4th jan
out with YING LOVE
met @ somerset station.
den mkn at esteler orchard cine.
den walked at 313.
proceed to HMV.new mall.taka.wisma.ion.far east.next to border.
like almost the town area.
haha!
but nvr buy anitink leh dat love.
aiyo..
nice hanging out with her..
so many mths nvr mit her.
must eat alot k syg!
mit up soon..

5th jan
went to DYLA GF hse.
sent stuffs..
presents exchange.
christmas pwesent.
lol
she so excited!
i got new bag too..
tanx love..
awesome!
den proceed to tampines1,tampines mall n century sq.
bought same makeup brushes n shorts.
well new wallet for u soon..so we can have same again k?
haha
fadhli once a while.me n dyla must me hor.
haha
after mkn at food culture.lepak at starbucks.
chitchat here n dere.
BGR-frens-shopping-new mit up.
den lepak last moment bfr she went werk.
aiyo..
how i wish we wont be so busy.
sianx
but nvm..
mit up again reli soon!

ps: mummie ril tis sat k!
sis outing on 27 jan
prem-mitup on 29 jan
mad lina sham lisa-31st jan?
tai tai yiting-1st feb?

♥rai ralphena♥

painful to know it

2010-01-03T19:30:00.003+08:00

a moment of happy turns into sadness

please i beg u du not force me.
let me be alone for a moment.
i feel my head is like almost explodin.
please.

idk how to start.
and where to start.
but all i could say aite now.
i feel insecure NOW.
shit.
its like 2nd time kene(i dun even noe whether its true or not)
i feel like cryin.
wait.i aredi did cried.
i dun noe wad to do n wad to say.
wad i noe is aite now i feel reli reli down.
all i could do is cry.
cry.
cry.

i dun ask alot in life.
but why must i went tru dis again n again.
it reli hurts badly.
i just feel lost for a moment.
i guess i jus pretend nothing happen den
although it hurts alot.
tanx again for making me cry.
jus sit and watch.
sooner or later everitink will be revealed aite?
in fact i still holdin to that belief.
KARMA may happen to u.

it feels so hurt.
i feel like goin out now,
screaming at the top of my lungs.
and never tink of it again.
anyone wanna tag along?

wen im down.
ice cream will owaes be mi bf.
green tea+ciggs+vodka will be mi companion.
if anyone willing to be my side den call me..
=(

oh.mine.
wad a luck.
or maybe im jus being emo n paranoid.
too much thinking=too much sadness

rai ralphena

happy for a moment

2010-01-03T17:56:00.003+08:00

3th jan 2010

-wokeup by gf dyla's call
talked for few mins den off
tried to sleep but cant..
played again psp on n off
den eat lunch.
prangai mcm babi sak.
haha!

and now watching FULL HOUSE again.
tis is mi 3rd time watching it.
i cant resist d fact dat the storyline is awesome.
so cute the both of them.
too much fairytale uh rai.
stop it can?
how i wish i find the right one dat brings to marriage.
dats owaes give in to me no matter wad happens.
cares my whereabouts
never cheat/lie/betray our rship
understands mi needs n wants
listen to my rants every single day
watch me till sleep
caress me to sleep
hold mi hands even during sleep
whisper 'i love u' to my ears bfr i sleep
never quarrel with me
showers me love n happiness
appreciate me the way i am
k rai stop it plish.
haha

see lah too much watching korean dramas
dis is wad i got into miself..
fairytales!fairytales!fairytales!
it wont happen..
reality check babe!
guis r not dat easy to meddle with.
dey r jus like dogs.
no wonder dogs n men r best fren.
loyal tk bertempat.
haha
we r cunning as a cat but we r not cruel to our love..
am i ate??
haha
lol

plan was to go out.
but im so the LAZY BUM.
cancelled!!
watched FULL HOUSE lagi shiok!!
den later BOF.
tmrw n tues shall go out!
cant wait!!
=)

tanx for recommending that pitbull song eh faisal.
mcm tk perlu.
haha.
so wen i can mit TAUFIK BATISAH??
im still waiting k!
ps:ada org tu da gemuk..haha..

im happy.
so r u?

♥rai ralphena♥

lets move on peeps

2010-01-02T14:30:00.004+08:00

2 jan 2010.
no plan cos im so damn tyred to go out.
i guess dat last nite shift reli tire me out.
so i guess sleeping all day long is wad i wan
aite now.
=)

to whoever it may concerns
let me make myself clear since its 2010.
and lets welcome it wit a better new chapter.

im not gonna bother with some of u people about my past rship with him.
i already make myself clear dat we r jus normal frens.
and its up to me or him of having another rship.
cos its none of ur business

another thing
dun act as if u noe me well..
but actual fact u dun..
seriusli its reli bothers me.
cos wen i dun feel dat way but u tink i am
it makes ting more complicated.
so better still dun tink too much hor.
give urself a life.

last thing.
i dun wan to say out names..
but i guess to who ever out dere tryin to
fcuk down mi frens..
cheat/hurt/belittled mi frens..
im giving u peeps warning..
better stop all d wrongdoings
cos sooner or later
urs wicked action will be exposed by me..
so if u dun wan..
den jus leave mi frens alone.
i jus dun get it.
dey dun hurt u but y must u did dat to them?

i noe im a bad person.
but how terrible i am.
i dun cheat/hurt my loved ones.
especially in my rship.
my frenship.
my kinship.
i treasure dem
very much.
but if dey did to me.
wad can i say more?
let them be.
cos i believe in retribution.
it reli does haappen

well chatting online with syia haizan can go crazy..
haha!
well be strong k girl?
i believe GOD stores some happiness for u.
show to him dat u deserve other gui better..
u rox babe!
mit up soon wen im free..
=)

ps:i miss u

♥rai ralphena♥

welcome 2010

2010-01-01T18:16:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
MOVE ON

i ended 2009 beatifully.
i jus love/hate 2009
days dat makes me sad.reli sad
days dat makes me happy.happy pills.
just hope 2010 will be better.
insyallah.

new 2010 means new wishlist aite?
hehe

1)own iphone 3gs without contract @ $1k on MARCH(im waiting)
2)THAILAND?
3)graduate frm dip in nursing(insyallah)
4)gettin new life partner.
5)more bonder with cousins
6)stay closer with appreciating frens
7)BATAM/BINTAN outing
8)see TAUFIK personally.

dats for the time being.
haha.
let see if it werk it out within 6 mths.
den i will add more wishlists.
=)

wad urs den?

cant wait to mit the rest dis few days..
5 straight days off.
i DESERVE it.
very much.
haha

signin off
-sleepy-

♥rai ralphena♥

MUMMIE RIL n RAI

2009-12-28T23:58:00.003+08:00

MONDAY BLUES=FUN+AWESOME!

after morning shift..
rushed home..
get ready to mit MUMMIE RIL!
its has been fcuking long time since i met her..
and trust u!
it was such fulfilling mit up..
sorry babe for making u to wait for me at bustop.
IRRIT EH PRANGAI KAU RAI.haha!
frm bustop to the bus ride to plaza sing to orchard cine to JL to 313.
the fcuking pissed off is dat..
all SHERLOCK HOLMES' timeslot sold out lah sei!
irrit.
den its k..
had dinner @ pastamania.
proceed to beadstreet.
suprise RIL!lol
aku kan random pe org.
den went to JL..
excited over the makeup stuffs.
but end up tk li pun.lol
since aku tk perna gy 313..
haha
so excited..
we went lah..
masuk FOREVER 21 je..
kiter da mcm kera..
haha
the HEELS AWESOMME GILER!!!
ITS K RIL..KAU NK BELI..BETTER BELI N LET ME SEE!!!
HAHA
well..
aku influence ril buyin clothes @ COTTON ON..
haha
cannot blame me..
aku spendthrift.
hahahaha
lastly..
went new look..
baik uh..
so duper shiok d shopping section..
mcm nk campin sana siol.
lol
bought a pair of black shoes.
by aite..
AKU TK LE BELI KASUT AGY seh!!!
HAHA

now slackin..
lil bit tyred plus missing sum peeps..
feel like huggin kissing slapping..
haha
tmrw nite shift..
damn it!
worse..
on eve NEW YEAR..
im werking leh..
CONGRATS RAI..
haha

let party soon!
as if.

♥rai ralphena♥

SUPRISE! 27/12/09

2009-12-27T23:14:00.003+08:00

27 DECEMBER 2009..
happy birthday to u NURLINA KHRUDIN..
may u like the suprise n pwesent!

TODAY outing.
went MARINA BARRAGE to give suprise for lina's bdae.
me-lisa-hisham-mad
kiter 4 plus lina.
LOL!
fly kite is the BEST!!!awesome!!!
APPLE CRUMBLE for the bdae girl.
den went down to SENTOSA..
to go SENTOSA COVE.
unfortunately..
sudah tk paya citer.
we planned alot but after anu petrol..
we headed to IKEA Tamp.
bought ice creams..YUMMY!
den to SIMPANG BEDOK!
makan!yummy!!!
kenyang sak..
wlpun sikit org..
ADLEAST im happy to mit dem..
outing again!
=)

CONGRATULATIONS 2 SEZAIRI SEZALI..
SINGAPORE IDOL!!
WOHOOOO!!!
TAUFIK BATISAH 1ST
HADY MIRZA 2ND
SEZAIRI SEZALI 3RD
alhamdulillah..

k set.
aku nk tdo skrg..
morning shift tmrw..
den miting MUMMIE RIL!!
weeeeee

PS:DECODE

♥rai ralphena♥

understand.me.for.a.moment.please

2009-12-26T20:56:00.002+08:00

Lyrics | Paramore lyrics - Decode lyrics

new blogskin.again.

2009-12-26T00:40:00.001+08:00

new skin again?
yeah..
i guess wen im down..
i changed blogskin alot.
pfft.

nites!

♥rai ralphena♥

not my luck.

2009-12-24T23:18:00.002+08:00

how many times must i kip tellin u not to make me feel like shit ever agaiN?
YOU LIKE IT ALOT huh?
k den.u shall taste the bitterness of the meds soon.
babi pig!

im kinda hate mix feelings.
its like something u dun like in ur mouth.
tryin to be removed soon.
yucks!

CHRISTMAS!!!!
i feel SAD.
cos CHRISTMAS..
premmy is not herre to hear mi whine.
lol
k wwatever..

i miss premmy.
i miss faisal.
i miss dyla.
i miss mummie ril.
i miss shak.
i miss wan too.nah.idk.

im waiting for ur fcukin day off babi.
call me soon or else i nbcb u uh.

k nites.

sorry peeps.
mentally unstable.
tmrw werk morning shift.
wad a luck.
christmas pple!
enjoi..

i wanna kiss JOHNNY DEPP can?

♥rai ralphena♥

SHOULD HAVE TOLD YA EARLIER

2009-12-20T16:40:00.002+08:00

IM BACK!~
kinda busy lately after the BKK trip to PRCP.
once again..
sorry to some of u dat i still have not meet during mi hols..
too many things with too lil time..
shall make it one day k?
promise
=)

YESTERDAY was FAMILY OUTING..
wit mi mum side.
it was super duper shiok..
i mean..
literally if some of you guys noe..
im not dat FAMILY type..
but it reli happens YSTERDAY..
sorry ERIN AZIERAH & (to mi fellow sisters n JO)
for not able to make it..
we had our dinner at SOFRA restaurant.
SUPERB!
shall go again.hehe
MARY JANE treat..
den after eating we wanted to move on but our two elderly(MUM & AUNT)
wanted to go home instead..
so we sent dem home den we went to CASH STUDIO at BEDOK..
around 1130pm..
it was mi first time wit mi cousin..
haha
suprisingly they r way to noisy!
i tot dey r not gonna sing at all..
lol!
had fun den!
3 went home n bla bla bla..
FUN!!!AWESOME!!

now woke up..
a lill bit tyred..
cancel some plans..
nxt time k?

11 dec 2009
MARKS THE LAST DAY OF MY LIFE AS logistic manager in stagearts..
kinda happy at ferst but i cried as im gonna miss all of mi stagearters pple..
we quarrellledd...bitch around..
cry..jokes around..
werk tgther..
it was all fun!
but kinda relieved..
dat i know someone will do the best after me..
i choose HANISAH HASIM to be the nxt logistic manager.
she was suprised thou..
i knew she can do it!!!

okie...
well i promised to tell u about mi BANGKOK trip aite?
haha
well..
let me recap it k?

SWADEES THAILAND!!!

1ST DAY
-reached BKK airport den the driver took us to our hotels..
super excited!nice rooms!nice ambience!SWIMMING POOL leh!
-excited over HOT PINK TAXI!!!GU GA GA!HAHA..
-went down to CHATUCHAK MARKET n JJ MALL.had a great deal dere!!
even bought last min MAC makeup eventhough we have to kip for JUSCO shopping.lol!
-lastly went to JUSCO..bought lil bit groceries..the best part was about the IRON.haha!
-proceed to hotel n slacked.

2ND DAY
-went downstair to had our breakfast.BUFFET!suprisingly no tourist having breakfast with us.its only 8am leh!
-get ready after breakfast.went to CENTRAL!!!SIAM PARAGON,DISCOVERY CENTRE.
watched NINJA ASSASIN at PARAGON.i feel at home leh!!!RAIN was super cute in dat show
-proceed to MBK!!! btw MBK is MABUKRONG!joke of the day!shopping like crazy!and decided to go again on 2nd last day!
-TUK TUK was fun!50 baht for 3 of us!the rider is so friendly.but i like the ride the most!
-TIGER SHOW!haha..makcik so cute..sorry eh makcik.worth it uh yat?lol
-went to PATPONG!scary!told faisal.he said dat place is very scary.yeah man!the seller is damn scary!damn expensive too!
-so proceed to SUAN LUM NITE MARKET!so BIG LAH!BIGGER den BUGIS STREET MARKET.big deal sumore.
-proceed home after it.shower.relax.watched cartoons.den i heard knock on the door!better not to write herre..scary!!!

3RD DAY
-shocked!breakfast!!!it was goin to 10!!!shit..wokeup den brush teeth n face den went down.haha!!!ate fcuking alot.cos we spent alot ystd so nid to save some for shopping later.
5 TOAST BREADS!2 EGGS!1 BOWL OF CORNFLAKES!I YOGHURT!COUNTLESS OF REFILL.haha!
-den went up n slip again cos of ystd incident!still i cant slip!YAT is the sleeping beauty.she got alot of patterns while sliping!hahaahaha..makcik owaes will slip first but wokeup on n off.me?their clock!lol
-woke up n bath proceed to ON NUT STATION!ate at PIZZA HUT @ LOTUS SHOPPING CENTRE
-den to SUAN LUM NITE MARKET AGAIN!best deal!and make new frens dere..the cartoonist dere r friendly.even had a packet of free M&M chocs!haha
-bck to ON NUT station..saw like bazaar..aper lagi!SHOPPING AGAIN!!!haha..
-home after 11plus dere..

4TH DAY
-wokeup den eat breakfast.never bath again!!!lol
-den rest in the hotel room..
-shower den proceed to CENTRAL again!
-went to CENTRAL WORLD!we got to eat HALAL TOM YUM!!at EAT MY WORLD.superb!!marks our last lunch at BKK!HALAL leh!!lol
-camwhore here n dere..d mall was like awesome..bigger..aiyo..confusing also..
-suprisingly.outside the mall,got nite markets stretches along the mall..can u imagine dat happened in S'PORE TAKA MALL?haha
-super duper deal!!!fun!!!i like mi short at 5 bucks sing leh!lol
-den proceed to MBK for last shopping!!!!!!crazy assholes...bought bags!MAC makeup!its a must leh!!!!
-best moment!!!!WATCHING MUAY THAI outside MBK SHOPPING CENTRE!!and get the chances to take pic with the winner!!!!weeeeeee...i like....i like it!!!!i wanna watched it again!!!
-proceed bck to ON NUT station..guess wad?left wit some money..
i got last in shoes n short!haha..
all at 220 baht!haha..
cheap siol!!!!!
-proceed to hotel like finally!

5TH DAY
-LAST DAY!!!!
-eat breakfast.gonna miss the food dere..tried PAD THAI with yat..SWEET N SPICY?but nice....joke herre n deerre..wishing to come bkk again..insyallah.
-went bck to hotel.both makcik n yat slip..i cant.waiting to swim!!!!!
-like finally!!!we tried the POOL!even make fren with the JAPAN businessman dere.haha
-bck to hotel room.had a good bath at bathtub.!packed our things!
-eat our maggie tom yum goong.
-say bye2 to our rooms..and to the front desk..im kinda miss them actuali.esp deir smiless...
-reached BKK airport n to find out dat our flight is delayed to spore..kinda pissed off..cos i wanna go home.and i dun wana stranded in pple land..u noe wad i mean aite?staying in ur own land is better den on others no matter how fun it is while u stay for hols dere..
-waited like for 5 6 hrs?
-reached SPORE at 5am!!!!!
-mi family took me home..nites!

an amazing destination for getaway frm stresss..
especially my 1ST time to go hols wit mi frens.
THANKS DAD for believing in his own daughter..
tanks dat im safe home..
greatful dat I live in spore..
reli shld feel greatful dat everitink is here.
kinda miss yat n makcik.
cos for 5 days..
we been tgther..
slip tgther...
noe deir slipng patterns..haha!
watched cartoons!n rush hours again n again..
miss the shopping dere..
miss everything in thailand!
but hey..
im happy dat im home..
may we able to step at bkk again..
insyallah..
anyone wanna join us again nxt yr MARCH?
lol..

now PRCP is quite challenging..
nxt week will be 3rd week..
8 more weeks to go...
insyallah everything will be fine..
i guess i shld stop herre den..

ps:i wanna dance with u

♥rai ralphena♥

let me rest ferst

2009-12-06T23:36:00.001+08:00

i will post about 5 days 4 nites of bkk trip soon once im free k??
meanwhile im so not looking forward for PRCP..
and wish dat ALUMNI NITE is over by now..
haha

ps:i love u

♥rai ralphena♥

i dun find it fun if u try to hurt me

2009-11-27T17:19:00.003+08:00

-the more u make lies,the lesser i feel insecure with u-

i cant help it.
i hate lying.
i mean if u do tell white lies to save btwn u n dat person..
i dun mind.
but if someting u tink gonna bothers u n dat person,isnT the best way is to tell
rather den keeping mum?
its really painful wen finally u learnt the truth.
and who shld u blame on?
den its the part wen both of us dun like it-FIGHTING TIME!~
so c'mon!
be sincere.
even how crazy it will be..
just let it be..
it shows sincerity!
dun u wan to save ur rship frenship kinship??

sakai's death doesnt stop dere.
i keep remembering him.
it makes me wake up from my sinful life.
haix
may god bless his soul

im happy girl for a moment.
but it wont last long.
hurting by action-words is like so common in mi life.
i bet tis is mi luck being so strong headed n bo chap attitude.
even how strong i am.
i still a girl dat needs shelter from her man.
sianx

i got to go now..
havent packed mi beg.
lagi sianx
tmrw family bbq..
like so packed..
it makes me hates miself sumtimes..
well maybe december gonna be a good mth.
hopefuli..
afteralll if its not gonna be good den i shall perish miself.
lol

ps:sorry babes n guys who i havent mit yet,we mit u soon..
thanks faisal for it

♥rai ralphena♥

meet me halfway♥

2009-11-25T22:22:00.002+08:00

cant believe dat in few days..
im gonna fly to bkk!
weeee
but still i havent packed mi beg..
=.=

oh gosh..
this week..
ending of november is kinda irrit me..
so depressing.
so down.
cant even breathe properly..
tears keep rolling down the cheecks
as if pleading for mercy..
i jus hope dat DECEMBER will be much more better..
afterall GOD is not that cruel towards his own people aite?

BREAKING UP.
FIGHTING
CRYING
it is so emotional to some of mi fellow loved ones..
i jus cant reli bear to see pain..
but wad can i reli do..
afterall mi rship doesnt last long bfr..
i jus hope everitink will b fine for some of them..
and i jus hope guis will be lil bit concern towards the girl
meanwhile for girls, hopefully be lil bit understanding wit wad gui wants..
afterall love is beautiful so dun dirty' it..

hopefully..
everitink will be fine once im back frm bkk..
may december end with a great smile..

i wish u were herre
listening to mi cries..
nah.
nvm..

♥rai ralphena♥

worse than women

2009-11-23T19:05:00.002+08:00

i dun give a damn to guys totally..
if u guys wanna act nice-friendly-fun-kind towards me..
den u guis wen to the wrong person..
cos im not gonna entertain such things..
jus let say be urself plish!

im jus mad..
puzzled
confused..
senang kata hati da mcm nk meletup uh..
stiill i dun get it..

complicated assholes..
yesh dey are..
full of nonsense

cant stand it animore.
nxt please?!

♥rai ralphena♥

TERASA-dun like it dun read

2009-11-21T19:37:00.002+08:00

-orang comment,dia pun nk comment..beh part kene dia,dia tkle terima.aper je-

saper terasa sorry uh..
hahahah...
well ystd me yat nad n yana watched TERASA(mcg drama production)
p aper aku ngok taklah terasa except the part in the mrt..
stereotype full stop..
and to be frankly..
those mcg-ians happen to read dis..
its just the fact from me..
klu tk suka..sorry lah..
the show kinda draggy in a way dat makes me wanna doze off or blah dri tmpt tu..
barely because...
wen the singer sings,lagu lagi kuat dri suara penyanyi..
theres no ommphh uh..except the stereotype je..
but its all depends uh..
to me its kinda medicore..
but others mite like it..
we learnt from mistakes pe..
so wad i said mite be ur learning points..
aite?
a good start to showcase this kind of drama..
on the other hand,tarian is so extra WOW even tho a lil bit messy herre n derre..
gd job mcg peeps..

wad makes me puzzled is dat..
wen peeps kip tellin otHERs to mend their own bisnes n asking to stop being
hypocrite lah..im totali cant stand it..
dia ckp org,p dia pun sama..
like aper nie?
wad im tryin to say..
u asked others to stop bother/intrude ur life,yet u urself provokin others pple life..
like -________-
im not sayin im perfect.
sometimes i realised dat..
but wad u could do is..
bfr checkin on others..
how about u check ur self ferst if u dun wan others to check on u..
good idea aite?
saper TERASA,sorry lah ye

im kinda pissed off with some of u readers..
this is my blog dearest..
so its up to me to post aper2..
i mean i post wat i tink-feel-enduring at that moment..
so yeah..
dun tink macam2 uh.
p saper TERASA,sorry lah
its kinda sad uh korg mcm gni
kadang2 bingit pun ada..
jus dun make me private this blog because due to some unrealistic n unreasonable peeps
btol tk?

attachment pe schedule da kuar..
in few weeks..
hell is calling me..
haha
aku kene posted kat ward 46 lah sei..
selamat rai

to maksim: i was a lil bit sad to see ur match was today from fb.
i know its hard to contact but its kinda sad tk dpt ngok u for 2nd time match.
anway gdluck n congrats if u menang!
u noe i miss u damn bff

ps:meet me halfway♥

♥rai ralphena♥

ALLAH love his people more den we do

2009-11-19T10:26:00.002+08:00

first farmost..
its kinda hard to accept the reality that a fren dat age of 18
left us to go back to HIM..
eventho i may not be close with him..
but every lil effort of him tryin to communicate with me is reeli playin in mi mind..
i cant imagine it dat it reli happened to him..
to some of u who read the BERITA HARIAN...
yesh MUHAMAD NAZIM ISMAIL aka SAKAI was drowned at ECP and only was found
after 1 day+ in the seawater..
at ferst wen mi bro asked how long can a person stay in the water?
i was taken back with his question..
barely because i noe sumting bad happen..
wen he said SAKAI is missing in the water and still not found.
aite in mi mind..
im sureli feel dere slightli chances of him survivin..
i feel so scared out of sudden..
all i could do was tellin miself they will find him alive despite knowin he cant survive
and wen dere found his body..
i noe he has to go..
painful for his parents(mum) n some of his frens
MAY ALLAH BLESS HIM
al fatehah

beside with this terkejut incident plus some at mi aunt hse..
i bet its gettin suckier n suckier each dae..
it makes me feel more down sad n paranoid..
the feeling to hang around as usual reli make me feel uneasy..
alot of things happened..
and i bet GOD is telling me to change mi lifestyle n attitude..
and werse the feeling of goin bkk was like______.
but dun wurrie sha n makcik..
we will still go..
its kinda shit..
but all i could do is tell miself dat time will flies fast n i have to wait patiently for a better days..
i believe HIM made us equally..
so i guess having bad n good luck have to be equal too..

i wonder why some guis wen they age..
their attitude n mind reli different then the normal teenage guis..
i wonder..
isit because they aredi experience it?
or isist normal dey act like dat?
confused...
guis r complicated too uh..
lols

ps: i will miss his smile n asking about mi whereabouts..

♥rai ralphena♥

not bad afterall

2009-11-17T15:14:00.003+08:00

relieved..
dat atlast im done with tagging all the past pictures at fb
weeee~~

im kinda feel dat guis..
LITERALLY fcukers..
are just simply wasting their time on me..
dey tot i dun noe their games..
but c'mon..
i noe ur lil dirty tricks..
tryin to get close with me..
being nicest..
sweet talk but no action..
make me go gugugaga towards them..
like wth..
i jus wont go into ur trap..
afterall..
im a smart babe dat owaes knows wad is rite,wads not..
so yea..
jus dream on k guis..
hmm..
how about preyin on other gals instead..?

listening to all the songs @ mtv
reali groove me to the beat!~
feel like dancing..
clubbin amcm?
anyone?
literally i noe im kinda sucks..
for such being busywoman all the time..
but hey..
i dun like it neither..
=(

being broke is aint no fun
but its okie..
lagi satu minggu..
lepas enjoy lah kau kt bkk..
and u noe wad..??
dadie yan being the best gerek dadie
is giving me some money to bkk trip!!
woohhooo
MUMMIE RIL do u see dat??
im soo happy..
dadie love keciq alot..
xoxo

afterall it isnt dat bad stayin at mi aunt's crib despite some matters..
adlest she starts to talk with me..
share some fashion tips.
underground stuffs..
haha..
infact she noe well teenage..
cool or wad..
nxt time go out wit us often lah..
=)

faisal!!
i hate the fact dat u owaes werk n werk n werk..
luckily u never forget me..
or else i gonna make ur life upside down uh!
haha

i tink i dunwan to watch paranormal act lah..
ngar2 boring..
haha.
so skipped je lah..
k bye.

♥rai ralphena♥

livin in denial is the best thing i can do

2009-11-15T20:16:00.004+08:00

-HOW TO DEFINE LOVE WHEN YOU'RE DOWN?-

afterall it isnt dat bad for this week.
i was down with fever and diarrhea
but after having a good nite slip
despite some irritants dat don unstand of da malam..
-.-
i have a nice warm SUNDAY.

im sorry fifi unable to attend to ur feast..
dun wurry
may ur beloved dad die in peace..
al fatehah

nwae,faisal had a bad day to end with
his werkplace kinda sucks..
but he still trying to adapt accept the fact
that the condition is really bad
wad a day eh?
kecian kau..
da g mandi air bunga ke aper ke..
relax dude..
but it was nice dat u willing to share with me

deres sumting reali bothering me much..
im kinda supress the feelings so hard
that i feel somehow somedays
i will definiteli go boink!
tadaa~~
but wad can i do?
im scared things can go haywire
especially if suicidal thoughts tend to happen
scary shit tau..
nannti tak silap hari bulan..
drg carik revenge kat aku..
tak maut pe?
i still wanna live..
i havent marry yet..
stiill wanna bear 2 kids(perasan juns!~)
wanna be successful nurse
better still havent repent..
hahaha!~

watever it is..
sooner or later..
i have to face it too..
let me die rather den suffer
(baru ckp nk idup?!)
-.-

let jus say..
i wanna have fun soon..
bug off fever..
shoo...

ps:love me,leave me

♥rai ralphena♥

where word fcuk is being properly used...

2009-11-14T20:06:00.004+08:00

fcuk!!
fcuk!!
fcuk!!
fcuk!!
fcuk!!
fcuk to those suckers who love sucking mi blood..
fcuk to those bastards who love bastarding mi life..
fcuk!

im gonna get sick..
actuali i am now!
pfft!!!
i hate it lah..
how to go out n enjoi life?
fcuk!

i hate people wen i ask for help..
dey cant help..
kasi seribu macam alasan..
but wen part drg nid aku help..
aku tolong mcm nk mampos pun tkpe..
mcm gni kata tolong member dlm susah..?
fcuk uh!!
NEVERMIND LAH!!!

i miss mi barbie..
i miss mi romeo..
alah miss pun aper leh uat...
besok ilang lah miss itu..
fcuk!!

nari saturday..
so must watch hindustan!!!
p mood takd.
nk ngok korean drama jugak..
fcuk uh!!

why..
wen we fall in love..
we die2 do watever d partner wans..
but wen we fall out frm love..
we cursed like no body bisnes.
pfft!
fcuk

how i wish some blue notes drop frm the sky..
=(
terribly soo poor like nobody cares..
pfft..
can i kiss someone and get the money den?
=)
dream on!
fcuk!

i realised this post is full of the werd "fcuk"
fcuk herre..
fcuk derre..
wad to do..
boredom kills..
especially wen u sick..
type fcuk!
actuali im fcukin piss off dats y all the para got the werd
FCUK!!

rai sungguh tak perlu mcm gni..
sungguh biadap skali mcm org tk ajar..
faisal klu ngar aku maki..
wah kene upside down..
eleh...
tak takut uh..
sikit uh..
hahah..
brani?
aku panggil JD uh!!!
fcuk!

da uh bye..

i wanna club soon..
karaoke soon
shopping soon..
fcuk lah!
money again..
pfft

♥rai ralphena♥

NOTHING IS SCARING ME OFF-IM NOT AFRAID(hopefully)

2009-11-13T10:23:00.003+08:00

i can't see the reason why things happen without us realising it..
but its impossible to ignore the fact that it really happens right infront ur face..
its kinda sucky but afterall what can a man do with this kind of things..?

its has been sleepless nites for me this few days..
topping up with hassle life's probs..
it jus make me feel more fatigue day by day
and worse i dun feel the satisfaction in me at all..
all i could do is keeping miself mum n grumpy.
=(

but adlest miting dyla gf n prem sugar..
it relieves me for awhile..
it has been awhile i shopp with her..
shared stories..
and it is nice dat shes attached..
i feel much more ease n calm wen i with prem..
maybe all because we have this chemistry in us..
but sadly..
i dun tink we can go further..
as in u noe wad i mean..
naturally both parents r traditional thinking
pfft.

im still confused with recent things happening around me..
i wonder should i feel scared which by aite i should to..?
suprisingly im feel more bravier den i shld..
haha!~
complicatedsuckyuckysituation
im praying hard everythings gonna be fine soon..

wad can a love brings u in future?
still searching for the answer..
and to tell the truth..
i hate the fact that sometimes guis r too annoyin..
complicated too..
pfft

i really wanna watch paranormal activity really soon..
plish plish plish

i miss bff maksim n shak baby..
shall we mit soon babies!!!
so random sak!~lol

ps:if u were born to be mine..den im willing to be urs too

♥rai ralphena♥

love matters

2009-11-10T06:29:00.002+08:00

i hate the fact that sometimes my heart tricked me..
even how much i told myself dat these r jus a bunch of nonsense dat tries
to make me turn upside down.
i know GOD is punishing me.
and i really let HIM do watever he wan..
afterall im jus pinjaman dri NYA.

in matter of hearts,
im leaving it aside.
i dun wish to noe..
in fact i dun wan to find it anymore.
ONCE BITTEN,TWICE SHY
but i bet i experience alot lah..
den why shld i really care about pple feelings wen dey dun reli appreciate it at the first place..?
why must dey be nice now wen actually dey shld do dat at the beginning?
why must i be shit n hard towards dem wen dey said sorry?
if u guis tink it easy to forgive someone..
den..
i bet the world wont be like dis aite now..
am i aite?

to those who in love
treasure ur loved ones
dun ever pick unneccessary fites

to those who out of love
dun ever think u tak laku
cos one day u definitely be more laku
den the person who left u behind
just be patience

to those who goin to be in rship
or just started
dun take things so fast
take a step..
breathe in n out together.

and lastly..
to those who goin to lose the rship..
cheer up
sit down together n talked about it..
afterall both of u r the ones making the rship down in the drain..
so yeah..
sort it out!

well.
i would like to have romeo as mine too..
how i wished.
0.0

hmm..
well mi type of an ideal guy.
let me see
he shldnt be so perfect or else..
im gonna suffered later..
i jus wish he is
understanding
have faith in me
trust watever i do
love me instead of me lovin him
caring
dont hold grudges
cry,happy with me
suprise me on certain things
owaes assure me dat im the one for him
communication wise..sms/call me wen needed..
and accept the way i am..
alah..
easy say
like romeo aite?
haha

well i guess i talked alot..
i shall slip now..
tata

ps:dyla congrats..
i miss u

♥rai ralphena♥

TGIF FINALLY!

2009-11-06T21:21:00.003+08:00

its finally over..
4 weeks of heaven..
after dat hell herre i come!
lol

attachment in ED is soo much fun-exciting!
i love the werking pace..
fast!fast!fast!
maybe i shld reconsider about werking at A&E..
hmm..
just let see how mi prcp goes den..
overall i reli enjoy the posting..
NICE CI EVER!!!!
=)

i wanna rot soon..
so maybe less updating blog..
=)
cant wait bkk trip..
weeeee
=)

k chao romanio

ps:wen can i have u?

♥rai ralphena♥

weeee

2009-10-25T18:02:00.002+08:00

-happy?elated?sad?fcuked up?-

SUN...
250CT..
happy bday faisal!
may u surrounds with happy pills.
especially ME!~
i noe im pain in the ass..
no matter wad..
must treat me nicely hor..
or else..
haha

SAT
24 OCT..
i love it!!!!!
cos im relieved passport done..
pay all mi bills..
den someone bdae tmrw..
den mit DADIE YAN mlm..
watched HALLOWEEN2.
with tty stef dadie aidil n kelip..
actuali me n stef n dadie je..
p dadie kan pemalu..
hahahahah..
p fun jugak ada aidil n kelip..
and u noe wad???
we played babi attack bfr the show start..
haha..
at taka sum more..
kelip is the best..
p adlast dia yg naik rabak..
haha!~
den dadie n aidil kene dimekap kan ole tty..
but aidil is the best..
supporting maut..
if i have time i put up at fb k?
mcm pompuan lah sei..
and kelip..
u owe me pic!!~
nk malu uat pe..
aiyo

it was super duper nice to mit dadie..
now no more dadie paitao keciq.
hahah..
lol
halloween 2 was like shit..
gore abis..
but jln citer sikit mcm fri 13th..
ahah..
i can even tel dadie
"citer mcm perna kiter ngok je."
hahaha
den after dat..
have to go home.
sorry eh tk dpt ton..
nxt time k dadie..?

today im super duper tyred..
penat nk mampos..
lol
org ajak..
i reject..
sorry..
sok da start attachment..
so i wanna rest..
i cant wait fri onwards..
i love love fun!`
wweeeee..

kamu di sana..
aku rindu banget sama kamu..
kamu mau jdi pacar ku..?
katakanlah ye.
aku menunggu si
haha
(k saper tau nie citer?klu tau angkat tangan..)

JENNIFER BODY..
im waiting for u..
fri!!!

i love wen pple tak irrit aku ari2..
muacks

♥rai ralphena♥

the same me on different topics

2009-10-22T20:46:00.002+08:00

♥never underestimate the power of silence♥
-rai-

im soo having a great time for my last week of hols..
den 26/10-6/11 resume my attachment at CGH for OT/ED posting
wah..
i heard alot of stories from my frens..
and i cant wait for it!!!~
but the best part.
after 2 weeks of attachment..
im having another 1mth hols..
weee..
dats before PRCP starts.
and im soo gonna die reli soon.
lol~!

although some of the days r a nuisance in my eyes.
but adlest it wakes me up to see the real people dat surrounds me..
like as if i dun noe them at all?
lol!
i dun care.
and i dun reali wan to noe..
fake or real.
the moment u talk to me..
i know whether u r good or bad..
im good in this area!~
tanx GOD for giving me this qualities..
=)

hang out with dyla love is always fun..
even how broke we are..
we still have time to chill out..
and make our day more meaningful!~
and i cant live without her.
lol.
like so serius..
hahah~!

miting mummie ril is another pleasure!
i mean..
we r damn busy women..
and its so difficult to mit up..
so dlm sebulan sekali?
OR WORSE..
klu btol free aru umpa.
lol..
but no matter wad..
we still kip in touch..
especially wen both of us tink the same..
even without mit up.
we can still share probs tru net..
lol!~

i havent mit shak bebey..
im so sorry love.
shall make it for tis nov k?
same goes to prem..
and also ying love..
aiyo..
still alot to mit up with the rest..
how about after i went for bkk?
=)

im soo touch dat u call me even ur damn busy..
syg kau..
muacks

let me end this post with one of mi quote.

♥always prepare yourself first before going on war♥

♥rai ralphena♥

THink BAck AGain

2009-10-20T13:19:00.003+08:00

-a hypocrite despises those whom he deceives,but has no respect for himself
He would make a dupe of himself too,if he could-

♥william hazlitt♥

with that definition above,
am i make myself clear dat i despise people using that word on others?
well maybe some of u disagree with me..
but to label someone using dat werd..
its totally disgrace to urself.
especially to ur own mankind.
well no one is perfect.
am i aite?
thus being selfish-backstabber-hypocrite is all common in mankind aite?
dun tell me neither of that qualities happen in ur life?
IF u say NO.U are just born to be a liar.
HYPOCRITE is way too large for someone to classify it on others.
cos the moment u said someone hypocrite..
its already stated on ur forehead.
dat ur one of them.
beg mi pardon if im being too insulting on some of u guis.
adlest i noe i did adlest
an hypocrite to someone.
u cant hide it.nor u can run from it.

im a laidback person.
initially i am a "im all for myself" kind.
but i learnt frm mistakes n experience.
im the QUEEN OF VULGARITIES.
but adlest i noe mi limits.
im the QUEEN OF HOTNESS
but i control myself.
cos y?
cos the more u making urself pissed with someting.
u will regret it one day.
initially something will take away frm u without u realising it.
so the best is to play safe.
by keeping ur self shut.

best friends?
is dere is at the first place?
wen theres no true friend IN the world..
how can u have best frens den?
am i rite?
friends are just like family.
another precious gem.
friends r friends.
family is family.
no special true best frens.
dey r all jus frens..
it just mankind create groups for them.
nah..

think forward.
never look backward.

ps:i missing u badly.

♥rai ralphena♥

thoughts for today

2009-10-18T01:06:00.003+08:00

LET JUST END IT HERE K?

better to be friend then enemy aite?

i dun mind at all if u tries avoiding urself frm me..
but adlest respect urself..
i treat u as a fren..
a fren dat i appreciate alot.
but if u tink we have to be like dis..
den tell me..
not ignoring or avoiding..
so childish..
(im refering to you if u realised dat our frenship is on stake..jgn prasan if bukan kau ye)

well i might not blog herre often..
cos im using onsugar.com instead.
so find out urself the link.
=)

cant wait NOV to come!
and i wanna party like a rockstar.
party diehard.
and if u guis tink i gonna flirt..
den its up to u..
wen i dun flirt..u guis said i flirt.
den wen i flirt..u guis din notice it..
so why wanna fuss a matter..
jus let it be..

BANYAK CKP PUN AKU TEMBAK DIRI AKU SENDIRI
SO BETTER SHUT MYSELF UP.

ps:wan~sorry eh tak mit..p we should hangout ramai2 with the rest.=)
dyla~tanx for owaes being dere for me..
mummie~i cant wait to mit u

♥rai ralphena♥

the past is sweeter den i've imagine it

2009-10-12T03:42:00.002+08:00

im kinda suprised..
shld i say a lil sad den?
i mean..
of all years knowing u..
i didnt know dat u can change dat so fast..
yeah..
if u dun realised it..
we do..
and i hate it wen u said u dont..

im kinda amazed with ur living aite now..
shld i congrats u dat u no longer kip holdin on our story?
dats y somehow rather i feel so cheated over u..
where is all ur promises?
EMPTY..
so yeah..
im choosing this path..
i dun wanna turn back for the past..
i dun wanna see whos getting hurt aite now..
i dun even wanna noe whether u still alive or dead..
for all i noe..
once a ****** forever will be..

im kinda happy with mi life aite now..
i dun ask alot.
jus let mi family n frens around me happy..
im happy with it..
even for mi enemies out dere.
how much ur hatred/disguise on me..
im happy for u..if ure happy for urself..
im not a kind dat kip grudges..
but i shall owaes remember d moment we had..
to forgive but not to forget..

im owaes believe in fairytales...
esp the part where mi prince charming will rescue me and take me far far away frm danger..
yesh..
typical fairytales..
but frm this tale..
i learnt alot..
adlest i know wad is true love by now..
i know wad and wen sacrifice shld be done...
i know who should i always listen to wen i fall in love with..
i know dat a boy will never love a girl forever..
its more den dat..

wen im searching for my life partner..
i du not want to find the GOOD bf..
but instead..
i wanna find the GOOD husband..
i du not want to kip rship for years but never marry to dat person..
but instead..
i wanna find someone who have dat mindset of living tgther soon..
i du not want to have tons of children although they r lovely..
but instead..
i jus wanna have 2 kids..
i du not wan to be a spoilbrat type..
but instead.
i jus wanna be comfortable with watever i have..(money can nvr bring along wen u die)
i du not want me to rule the rship..
cos wen the girl start to rule the rship..
it wrecks everything..
am i aite boys?
lol

if u say i don care about u..
then do u have any evidence to prove ur judgement?
i dun tink so..
i care for u..
i care wad u tink.
i care wad u wan.
i care wad u nid.
i care wad u like.
i care wad u love.
i care wad u wish..
i care for anitink dat u wan..
name it..
i owaes care for u..
cos u r the only matters to me.
but all was just a past.
i duna ask alot.
just treasure the memories..
in ur heart
wic i did aite now.

all i could say aite now.
gdluck in ur future life..
may god bless u..

ps:if u tink i dun miss u..u r totally wrong!

♥rai ralphena♥

stop asking me

2009-10-09T22:15:00.002+08:00

if u regard me as ur friend
dun asked alot.
love,
rai

ps:cranky wen comes to period.fcuk!
(bsk jalan ray!yippeee!syg korg~)

♥rai ralphena♥

heart to heart

2009-10-07T23:55:00.003+08:00

i couldn't express how happy i am this few days..
even its not reli WOW to mi expectation..
but it jus matter of who u with on dat day..
AWESOME pple JUS like ME!!
YIPEEE!!!

2ND WEEK OF HOLS!
mon-out with makcik all to henderson waves n marina barrage
tues-out with faisal to watch surrogates
wed-out with yat to vivo den headed to sch for miting tgther
thur-off day?(its owaes will b last min outing.trust me!)
fri-out again
sat-jalan raya with SISTAS N BOIS!
sun-jalan raya with family

packed!!!!
I REALLY HAVE NOT REST SINCE MI FERST DAY OF HOLS..
AND IM DAMN TYRED AND NID GOOD SLEEP..
maybe shall do this tmrw!
lol

im scared of ED/OT..
jus let me have this attachment without any trouble.
and den i wanna rot again!
hahaha
partying anyone?
weeeeee

i learnt sumthing today..
never expect things to be always good.
have a lil space of dat negative thoughts.
it doesnt really harm but adlest it gives u strength to move on..
am i?

im proud lady to have alot of frens..
and also proud of not having the true fren!
lol
tell me..
will anyone be there for u wen u in need?
literally physically-emotionally-financially condition?
NO!
even dere is..
how long will dey able to sustain it?
i really appreciate dat i have caring frens around me..
who will never one to see me sad all times..
and i reli appreciate it if dey never judge me due to mi past..
cos to me..
to accept someone..
we should never look at pple past..
i didnt look at mi fren 's past wen i make frens..
i fren with drug addict-unplanned teenage pregnancy-sex addict-gambler..
i dun care their past..
for all i noe..
dey r jus normal human beings who tend to make mistakes..
and dey reli sincere to be mi fren..
so will u be mi fren wen i say im lesbian?
hahahahaah
(dats for sure not true.lol)

i started to hate people who act as if dey noe..
but actual fact..
NOTHING!!!
it doesnt pissed me off..
but the more u act like one big kind..
its total shut me down to even notice u..
so if u wan me to respect u..
just stop acting as a SHIT..
but act as NORMAL..
if u nid me to teach u..
jus dial mi num..
1800-let-me-teach-u
=)

i dun mind if u tink im bad..
for all i noe..
u dun even noe me reali well..
IM REALLY AM A BAD GIRL..
but to a certain extent..
i value u as mi fren..
i dun go around bitching about u..
infact without me bitching about u..
people already noe about it..
so am i bad to u wen u urself bitch about me n tries to irritate me to the core?
jus have some soul searching..
im not asking u to pin point anyone now..
i noe i do make mistakes..
so lets repent for the better?
lol

wah..
i can really blogg like nobody business..
haha..
but i blogg wen i feel like to blog..
i dun blog nonsense-craappy stuffs..
i blog about wad happen lately..
and most importantly..
blog actuali update me with u guis of wad actuali happen n to b avoided if necessary.
lol

if mi blog sounds harsh to u peeps..
im totally have no choice..
its REALITY..
this is wad i feel n went tru..
it doesnt mean if have to be u im referring..
u have to tink..
i have alot of frens..
it could be sum1 dat im reli close/not close with..
so dun jump to conclusion..
if u tink,its U!~
den wad i can suggest is to talk to me..
im a relek-one-corner-pe gal..
I DUN SIMPAN GRUDGES..
cos i hate enemies..
its like kiping a rotten cat in the closet..
yucks!
lol

i bet those who noe me well..
will understand with the above..
so no hard feeling yo'
taking care..
will update wen i have tings to update den..

sorry no pics again!!
laptop crashed!~
will be resume wen i go send the lappy for repair!

ps:yat(no matter wad decision u wen tru,by all means its U..no one can stop u.not even me)
:mummie ril(plish get me asap wen u saw ur name here love)
:shak(may our frenship still grows on n on)

-living in fantasy is mankind's dream.so dun dream.cos it bleeds.-

♥rai ralphena♥

short meetup with you

2009-10-07T00:52:00.002+08:00

it was simple meet up.
met at somerset..
walked down to lucky plaza to have our lunch-cum-dinner
den proceed to shaw hse..
watched SURROGATES..
im lovin' it..
BRUCE WILLIS is stiilll HOT!!
nice story..
but i didnt cry lah..
thumbs up..
walked around n bid goodbyye
cos sum1 is going to get sick..
=(

wen i see couple around..
its so sweet
but sum wanna puke me out seh..
haha
i recalled back wad maksim bff once told me..
and im still believe in dat..
LOVE-FAITH-CARE-TRUST-UNDERSTANDING..
i wished one day..
i will share dis with mi future love..
=)

2nd chance to u?
sound familiar..
yeah..
but its no longer 2nd chance to u..
cos its always 3 4 5.....chances on u..
so y must i give u more chances wen u still dun wan to change
but instead asked me to change?
mcm tk masuk akal..
if u cant stand me..
den i rather let go of me..
am i wrong?
nth lah..

recap:raya with bwps is totalli nostalgic..
hehe..
aper ketdk..
org yg slama baper taun aku tk nampak..
aku da jumpa..
and suprisingly..
perangai ttp cute..
mcm aku jugak..
sayang korg..
muacks!
nxt outing plish!
bfr aku g BANGKOK...
(and tanx faisal)

ps:aku mau kamu jadi pacar dlm idup ku..bole 'gak?

♥rai ralphena♥

outing to henderson waves n marina barrage

2009-10-05T23:05:00.002+08:00

im so jealous..
cos 1st ting..
i have no lappy to begin with..
2ndly i cant upload picwss!
aiyoh...
sad!sad!
=(

just now was super duper best n funny!
me-makcik-mar-yiting-js
hopped in the rental car(tanx to makcik!)
went to HENDERSON WAVES..
but goin dere was shuckss!
WE ENDED AT WOODLANDS CHECKPOINT!!!
!*&^%@
IRRITATING!
stupid gps!!!
haha..
den managed to get bck on track..
so finally reached our destination!!!
weee..
it was mi 2nd time dere..
and i fell lah seh!
haha
too slippery..
camwhore like deres no tomorrow..
weeeee.....
pics in FB!
den around 5..
wen to MARINA BARRAGE..
dis round..we made it!
cos i went dere bfr by vehicle..
so tk tersesat!!!
hehe..
we played water sak..
wet!wet!
never went up..
nxt time den..
den around 6 plus we blah!
and d best part..
hahahahah
makcik so cute lah..
asyik terlajak je..
but i reli enjoi it!
so ya 2 places at one go!!!!!
weeeeee..

wen i reached home..
tty told me..
"sis,fifi's dad passed away.."
i was shocked sak..
i mean..
fifi is jus barely 18..
and her dad da pergi..
takziah for the family..
AL FATEHAH
may allah bless him in other werld.
amin..

k lovelies..
dose who wanna jalan raya..
its really difficult this time..
cos..
mostly im packed with activities-events
and mi weekend is mostly for mi dearies..
so yeah..
nxt yr je lah..
lol..
jangan marah!
=)

mr prem is so nice with me..
so does mr ayul..
but the best is faisal..
heart u!

ps:makin ari makin aku syg kau..kau syg aku?

♥rai ralphena♥

2nd week!!!gonna enjoy

2009-10-05T02:29:00.004+08:00

AKU suka!
KERANA jalan raya ngn PRI sch aku..
aku syg drg..
haha..
IM KINDA Miss the 7yrs old rabia..
paling best..
asyik kene kacau je..
well..hantaran 10k..
amcm?
bole dapat tk boys?
da leh dapat den baru leh ckp sal nikah k?
haha

if im goin to fall in love again..
i will make sure..
d rship brings to marriage..
ada anak 2 JE..
tak kisah tinggal mana..(but not hutan lah)
and yg paling impt!!
mesti tinggal EAST!!!!!!!!!!!!
amcm?

and did i mentioned about mi wedding?
i did said i wanna held mi wedding at the beach..
hehe..
i changed mi mind..
I WANT TO REGISTER AT ROM den to HONEYMOON!
TAKD MAJLIS NIE SEMUA..
no wedding dinner or so watever
only tell them went aku nga mengandung..
amcm?
haha
=)

will post again..
gonna enjoi tmrw..
weee

♥rai ralphena♥

1st week of HOLS

2009-10-02T02:38:00.004+08:00

i cant wait to use lappy soon..
tanx faisal..
or else..
im bored to death here..

well dis week kinda packed for me..
and the reason i cant blog is because of mi lappy..
craashed!
lol
den i am so busy with outings..
ohkay..
let me recap..

SAT-mit faisal n watched phobia 2..(nice one)
SUN-jalan raya.open hse at uma kak timah
MON-mit dyla love..tty join!
TUES-booked airtix den go sheesha with syg2 ku(bffs eh?)..tty join!
WED-sent HAZIQ off(gonna miss u) den dyla love n me off to hfrnt..den midnite mit faisal..(its round the clock tingy..tyred)
THUR-photoshoot!i love it!!!

nie lum termasuk besok sat n sun..
konfirm best!!!
nxt week..
packed jugak..
aiyoh!!!

aku suka ngan hols..
yg penting...
NOVEMBER im cuming!!
BANGKOK........
WEEEEE
aku tak sabar..
bismillah..
amin..

ps:so wad if u tink aku pentingkan kwn..mmg pun..sal kwnn drg tak tinggal kan aku..

♥rai ralphena♥

JUST MY LUCK

2009-09-25T22:28:00.003+08:00

WHAT THE FCUK!!!
mi laptop dropped on the floor..
and theres no lite wen press on..
so how the hell am i suppose to use it wen the screen is damn DARK?
mmg suay!

aku ingatkan day aku end with a good smile..
p mcm babi!
aku da mcm malas nk kisah..
gasak uh.
so how now?
duit kene kuar lagi!
babi!

i cant wait for tomorrow onwards..
weee...
hols here..
can slip late..
can go out pai mlm..
ENJOY!!!!

WEEK 1 (26/09-4/10)
out with sum frens..
going ICA for passport..
sending fren to airport..
shak going philipines.
jalan raya with fam n pri sch

WEEK 2(5/10-11/10)
jalan raya with sistas n fam
hang out with bestie
sleepover(maybe)

WEEK 3(12/10-18/10)
finishing up the houses with frens n fam
hang out with dearies
mit up crazy assholes

WEEK 4(19/10-25/10)
partying?
hangout with love
sleepover?
karaoke?
celebration

den back to werk..
like so BORRRING!!!!!!!!!!
but nvm..
2weeks oni..
den yippe!
WAITING FOR THE DAYS!
bangkok here i commmeeee
let me have a good hols bfr PRCP.

wah some1 is so damn angry with me..
apologised also nvr repli..
like nvm uh..
dun wan to quarrel..
if pple tink im hot headed..
i guess ada org lagi yg hot headed
tol tk?

with no money..
i guess i shall rot at mi fren's hse soon..
maybe movie marathon..
=)
haha

ps:tanx for the wish..but its over btwn me n u..maybe u wanna said it with ur new love?

♥rai ralphena♥

love-promises

2009-09-24T22:57:00.003+08:00

i feel like shouting at mi LECTURER!
i dun even care if she reads this post!
TOMORROW is our last day at that hosp.!
so?
WHY must she ask us to cum down on sat?
WTF!
i have appointment lah seh!
CBNBKIA!
feel like slapping-punching-stepping her!
u tink we have NO LIFE LIKE U ISIT??
pple have life man!
I DUN WANT TO GO!
geddit?
tmrw i will talk to her..
aku sembur dia ngn ayat yasin n kursi..
HOPEFULLY she can be tolerated!
or else..
im GONNA rot!
i dun care!!!!!!
sumtimes it make me wanna puke with this kind of attitude!

I CANT WAIT TO HAVE MI 1MTH BREAK!
YIPEE..
i wanna spend time with mi loved ones..
im gonna rot like hell..
im gonna have fun as much as i can!
yg penting kiter HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i dun care wad pple gonna said!
cos if dey r gonna interfering mi LIFE..
den don find fault with me if anitink goes wrong in their life!
aite?
lol
but adlest i noe wen im gonna quit all this activities.
maybe wen i found him..hehe

do u ever realise something in couples?
if u dun..
den i will den..
saying "I DO" is so common..
den after dat dey will go with this"I WILL FOREVER N EVER LOVE YOU"
or "I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU"
or "NO ONE WILL REPLACE YOU IN MI HEART"
sound similar?
i bet u do..
its so typical.
YESH i admit i did dat bfr..
but after i learnt it..
I REALISED wad is TRUE LOVE MEANS now..
its not jus about u n that person..
its about u-that person n GOD..
correct me if im wrong..
wen u said "I LOVE U FOREVER N EVER..NO ONE WILL REPLACE U..ONLY YOU THAT I LOVE"
isnt dat unfair on ur others loved ones?
and how SURE r u dat she/he is the ONE for u?
i cant stand it wen couples said..
"im urs hubby/wifey.."
i feel like vomiting sak..
not even legally married sumore!
haha..
i dun mind if u said dear-darl-love..
BUT HUBBY OR WIFEY?
haha..
cute or wad?
or it could be means dat both of u r hubby/wifey cos u guis have fcuk each other..
so tellin others..
hes mine hubby..
shes mine wifey..
lol
funny..
beg mi pardon..
but it jus too wrong..
den wen u guis officially marry..
wad will u guis call each other den?
still hubby/wifey?
BORING!
lol..

this is a lesson for me to take note..
never ever label hubby/wifey with mi loved one bfr kawin.
haha
never ever made promises..
cos watever promises wont bring to reality.
instead the other way round..
MAYBE i could say.."I WILL NOT PROMISE..BUT I SHALL WORK HARD FOR OUR LOVE AMPAI ke ATAS PELAMIN.."
amaciam?
classic tk?
haha

aku rasa cinta ROMEO N JULIET jugak paling CLASSIC!
SETUJU?
WEEE

I GUESS i shallstop about this or else..
pple gonna fcuked me upside down..
haaha!!

can i say sumting?
klu aku kawin..
G R.O.M den cabut ke honeymoon..
wiithout telling anyone..
dosa tk?
haha

nites!

ps:i reli enjoi mi day with miss dyla..cant wait next week..=)

♥rai ralphena♥

result!!

2009-09-23T08:15:00.005+08:00

back!

NIGHT SHIFT is so BORING!

but adles lepak maut until me n mariam draw2.

camwhoring.
haha

cant upload pics..

sorry!

just checked mi result..

i tot it will take time to process the result..

but hey!
i was so suprised wen i opened it..

i tol miself..

i have to be prepared with the result..

and tanx GOD!

I'VE MADE IT..

syukur alhamdulillah..

despite all the turbulence i faced during dat period of time..

i managed to hold gpa of 3.0

i reli wanna it increase..

but i noe where i stand.

its k lah..

as long i da pass im happy..

i wanna tanx faisal for owaes dere for me..

gua blanja lu k?amcm?haha

since i passed mi exam..

i guess its time for me to take a break..

whooo!

today 2nd nite shift..

den tmrw off..

fri finally last day in SACH..

im surely gonna miss dere..

i learnt alot..

and seriusli talking..

i love the nurses in LEVEL 4..

dey r very nice kind hearted nurses..

mYBE after werking with CGH..

GUA MAU LARI TO SACH..k?

haha

i'm proud of miself.

although aku nie prangai mcm babi..

ku adles tau mana baik n buruk..

chey!

aku nk org yg pandang aku serong tau dat aku boleh succeed uh..

lol.

kdg2 org ckp

g mampos aper org nk ckp..

mmg btol..

tak kene kat korg..senang uh ckp..

tol tk?

well..

aku sekarang on diet..

actuali not on diet uh..

jus dat aku jaga pemakanan aku..

aku jaga kesihatan aku..

sal aku tnk cepat tua..

lol

and aku tnk gemuk at this moment..

aku tnk ada wrinkles pun.

aku nk happy go lucky..

bla da masa nye da tua..aru bole lah face all this ugly side of mi life..

haha

anywae,takd laki pun k pe?

hidup sorg ttp leh idup..

aku bersyukur..

amin..

well i guess will update the next time..

wanna watched sum movie..

den gettin sum slip or else tonite i will doze off bfr werk start.

lol

love ya..
miss ya..

u noe who u r..(p jgn terasa uh klu bukan korg eh..lol)

♥rai ralphena♥

1st nite shift!

2009-09-22T18:57:00.002+08:00

new skin?
lol

im soo not welcoming tonite..
cos i have to werk nite shift later..
luckili MARIAM love is with me..
or else..
rot n die dere!
haha

im kinda pissed of with sum pathetic pple..
do watever u guis wanna do.
said watever u guis like..
cos at the end..
i dun lost anitink..
(nk kasi aku jealous pun madai2 uh lah beb)
i jus dun get it.

semalam hari paling aku susah nk lupa kan..
chey!
nk telan air liuh pun susah.
haha..
jus wanna tell them dat me n him da abis.
p mcm mana nk ckp eh?
takut malu ulak..
so iye kan je lah..
nnti sooner or later drg tau lah tu..
lol

okie okie.
update later.
nk mkn n bath..
den off to werk..
shit!

aku suka kuih muih..
sedddaaaaaaappppp!
yum..

ps:aku rindu sama kamu

♥rai ralphena♥

1 syawal

2009-09-20T23:31:00.002+08:00

i realised dat mi blog is getting boring n dull..
esp no pics...
its not dat i dun wan to post pics..
the reason behind it is dat im PLAINLY LAZY to upload the pics..
so jus let it be lah..
once i have the cable..
i promisee to post as many pics as i can..
even jus now while heading to mak ngah's hse..
me n sis camwhoring in the bus..
no one else sitting behind us.
=)

RAYA-ing this time is kinda slow n dragg..
but adlest im able to mit mi grandma the most..
she's the only grandparent i have aite now..
and i hope i can support her while she still alive...
cos i noe its hard for mi aunts n uncles to support her..
talking about grandma..
i missed grandpa alot..
i missed them alot..
that somhow rather i knew they r owaes around us..
i can feel dat dey r watching us..
if everitink can turn back..
how i wish i can hug both atuks..
hmm..

otherwise..
im
HAPPY!
EXCITED!
c0s someone dat i reli idolise..
someone dat i tergila2 kan..
someone dat i owaes tink of..
kirim salam me n mi adik..
its none other den..
TAUFIK BATISAH..!!
tanx faisal..
hearts u..
=)
ps:nxt time jgn lah malu2..bwk i g uma dia..leh ngok muka dia without ani org mengacau je..=)

im crazy over BOF..
basicallie not over the actors..
but the story line..plot of the story..
the emotions..
its so similar like METEOR GARDEN..
jus dat now much more hip n more action..
how i wished..
i be able to mit this type of gui dat reli love u no matter wad happen..
sacrifice for the rship..
protect u from harm.
care for u dearly..
but overall..
able to accept the way u r..
aww...
so sweet kan?
aku nk boleh?
hehe..
miss him tons!

im getting impatient with life sumtimes..
and i reli hate it..
im scared i will get hypt lah seh..
asyik mengamuk je..
seram tau..
kene byk beristighfar..
faisal pun ckp...
aku nie kpala batu..
mmg pun..
semua org pun ckp gtu..
beh mcm mana nk keluarkan batu dri kepala?

aku nga pikir names for anak aku uh..
haha!
berangan tak abis..
lol
p kan..
klu ada rezeki..
aku nk 2 da cukup..
=)
ckp sal nama..
aku rasa..
fahrin nama sedap..
mcm fahrin ahmad..
handsome ulak tu..
mcm gni aku bagi nama kat anak aku uh..
tak kisa uh klu tak ikut first letter of mi hubby's name..
aper aku kisa
lol

hmm..
well..
i cant wait to mit u..
cos im crazy aite now..
and i hate missing u..
pape uh..
lol

selamat hary raya..
duit raya amaciam?

♥rai ralphena♥

~SELAMAT HARY RAYA~

2009-09-19T19:04:00.004+08:00

eid mubarak 2009

PUASA DA ABIS!
AMIN~
BESOK RAYA..
HAPPY?
OHH tidak..
klu boleh tanak raya..
but i tink its gonna be fun..
cos jus kemas mi bilik..
mi bilik is super cute with STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE BEDSHEET plus CARTOON STICKERS paste on part of the bed..hehe..
saper2 yg mau nikah ngn saya..mesti tolerate mi childishness..lol

aku SITI RABIA'TUL' ADAWIYAH RAMBLY(sedap tak nama umi bagi?p prangai setan)aka MRS JOHNNY DEPP ingin memberitahu korg semua..
dat im not gonna said sorry eh..watever apologise tingy..
cos its not appropiate..
i will DEFINITELY do it wen i mit u guis..
so dun WURIE..
saper2 yg rasa aku buat jahat kt korg..
den tunggu je k?

SELAMAT HARI RAYA..
WHOOOSSH!!
sok pki baju itam ngn tty!
yipee..

ps:sok ader org tu kene g keje seh..
kecian dia..
takpe.
i kasi xoxo k?
miss ya
tc..

♥rai ralphena♥

jus a normal fine day!

2009-09-14T22:25:00.002+08:00

it has been a long time since im blogged.!
i was jam packed with activities-events-social life..
and im reli enjoi it too bits!
and i wont regret with this moment!
jus move on~

i have a lil secret here..
i wanna quit clubbing..
aww..
too bad bois..
no more dancing around..
and i wanna LOSS WEIGHT!!!!
im serius..
we shall see den..
=)

im happy..
wen i noe u r happy..
even if ure not..
adlest im happy..
cheer up!

ps:i love LOVE..but hate the journey of it..

♥rai ralphena♥

there's a limitation to a certain things...

2009-09-12T20:33:00.003+08:00

SA PRODUCTION IS OVER!
LIKE FINALLY!
FUN!
AWESOME!!

im soo tyred with life..
and i jus wish sumhow rather i can trade with other choice..
failed in rship..
falied in frenship..
failed in family bond..
seems dat im such a failure..
like wadever..
and i noe..
it just ALL ABOUT MI FCUKED UP behaviour.
just shut up.
i don nid ya sympathy..

i tot u were once mi fren..
but i dun tink so now..
wen im happy..
u r happy..
wen im sad-down-nid help..
where were u?
i dun even noe am i ur truly fren..
but all i noe..
i really treasure u..
just like other frens in mi life.

pple says i dun care for mi frens..
any prove to show dat im not?
truthfully said..
im owaes dere for mi frens..
maybe not literally dere..
but adlest i did mi best to be owaes dere for them..
all i jus wan frm dem..
is the thoughtful mind..

im off people.
rather go out n have fun.
u may rot n die
for all i care!

im living in a werld with full of hatred-guilt-sin
so watever.
its not new to us though.
like i said..
fcuk off!

♥rai ralphena♥

i knew all along.but i just kip mum

2009-09-08T23:58:00.002+08:00

now tell me whos in the fault aite now?
arrrgghhhh...

i learnt mi lesson.
be cool with watever happen in ur life.
no matter how bad it was..
must cool down n relax..
breathe in n out..
but for sure.
watever happened recently..
deres a certain limit lah!

we knew about it.
i cant deny the fact we keen for each other..
but..
once it hurts me deeply..
i cant reli help it.
i noe im SUX big time.
but i hope u understand it..

adlest i believe in fairytale..
apart for a moment..
but maybe will mit up again?
like mi dearest bff..
omgd!
im so happy for him!!
hes back with his best ever sweetie..
awwww
i feel like huggin him..
(dun be noty2 k sweetheart?)
but must owaes remember me!
=)

as rite now..
i realised with mi inner alter ego.
sum1 voice it out..
and im not angry..
instead im so gonna change..
for the better lah..
tanx love

andAND i read it..
it reli touches mi heart..
but love..
everitink changed for a reason..
even if we r with another partner..
but i believed..
GOD is testing us..
i believe in 2nd chance..
maybe we shall mit again if GOD reli wan us to mit..
not dat i dun love u..
i du..but it jus dat..
we r surrounded with too much of hatred n guilt..
maybe i shld reli damn change..
=(

i learnt sumting vulnerable t0day..
i dun care whoever reads dis..
u guis wanna comment-gossip neagtive/positive..
jus go ahead..
kos its mi life dat im dealing with..
afterall..
bfr wanna judge mi LIFE..
better go n judge urself k?
esp in ur R'SHIP LIFE..
cos deres no point of mengumpat mengutuk mengeji hal peribadi aku..
if kau pun mcm sama jugak...
sng ckp uh..
PANTAT KALAU HITAM PERGI PUTIH KAN DULU..DEN BARU BOLEH PUTIHKAN PANTAT AKU K?
(sorry being harsh..but this is REALITY)

AKU SYG KAMU..
aku rindu kamu..
tapi aku mau JOHNNY DEPP..
nites!

♥rai ralphena♥

empty promises!

2009-09-07T01:45:00.002+08:00

i guess its true den..
too much of watching fantasy movie..
will turn ur love life upside down.
haha!
I GUESS its right..
correct me if im wrong den..
in movies..
THE LOVER WILL MAKE A PROMISE TO THE OTHER..
"we shall be together no matter wad happens..even if we r separated..u still in mi heart.."
yadah yadah..
wad a piece of shit..
do this happens in reality?
haha..
NO WAY!
not at all..
jus like me n r..
it wont be the same..
PROMISES r just nuthing to us..
we all noe dat..

nxt time..
dun trust this piece of shit..
a lesson for me..
shall not believe in fairytale..
just let fate do its job..
hopefully i get sum1 dat better in sum aspect..
lol
maybe..
watever lah..

byk2 aku pikir..
aku yg jadi tk betol..
betul kata org..
klu member da mcm gtu.
lupakan sua..
cari jodoh baru sih..

mcm gni aku perlukan bantuan
dri WALI BAND..
carikan aku jodoh ya..
haha..

ini masa nye..
aku tidak boleh cerewet..
dapat tua or muda..
grab je..
haha
precisely i wan 20 odds yrs old..
matureed...(yummy!)

jus now went GEYLANG.
not with DADIE YAN.
but with mi sis n bf..
as usual..
tmpt paling aku BENCI!!!!!
klu tk krana nk li brg..
aku tk ingin nk tron..
DA LAH PANAS..
MINAH N MAT ulak..
aiyoh..
udah lah..
me n sis bought same bayu kebaya..(ijal:black!=))

ohkie lah..
sok gonna start with practising..
malay dance for the event..
hehe.
12 sept ulak SA PRODUCTION..
hmm..
packed..
(kecian member..sabar ye.wen finished..we ca mit everyday..mcm paham.haha)

nites!
aku mau jadi pacar mu bole?
kish..
muah

♥rai ralphena♥

wads next?

2009-09-06T04:54:00.002+08:00

jus cumbck frm dance pract..
tiring!
tanx nana..
syg kau
=)

sahur now!!!!

im missing JD n ROMEO..
if u guis wanna noe..
its actuali d REAL JOHNNY DEPP n ROMEO in shakespeare..
yesh..
fantasy abis..
i mean..
who else can be like dem?
not dat i hate REAL guis..
but not for the moment..
jus let me be in this state..
mana tau..
sooner or later..
i found the rite person..
up to HIM..

2 MORE DAES..
den mi beloved babies bois..
masuk NS!!
Tc tau dadie yan n wan..
syg korg..
mish korg byk2..
muah
muah
lol

i hate this part aite now..
aku in delimma..
ITS NOT ABOUT RSHIP OR LOVE STUFFS..
its about personal life..
jus dat im rather confused den knowing it..
hais..
how i wish..
tings around me oni happen for the goods.

k pape uh.
aku penat!
bye

♥rai ralphena♥

its hurts..but so wad?

2009-09-04T23:38:00.003+08:00

can i jus close mi eyes..
andAND run away from reality for a moment?
how.i.wish.

i know what has happened around me..
but i jus rather keep mum..
its hurt to see firewall amongst love..
but what can i do?
if i said sumting to it..
surely confirm dey shoot me back..
so right now..
silence is the best.

im gonna be cool towards with anything.
im being taught to be patience and laidback..
im trying to restrain myself from using vulgarities(too much!)
im learning to forgive and forget(but also depends on wad kind of situation)

mi 2 best gui frens are going ns really soon..
andAND it reli dreads to see them go in..
one is MUHAMMad SUFYAN
another one is MUHAMMAD RIDHWAN
aww..
im gonna miss them..
lalalalalala..
wen dey gone
i no fren..(nampak sah bedek)
i mean..
DADIE YAN is owaes dere for me.
even how irritating annoying i can be..
still he tolerate mi nonsense..
layan mi stupidest lame joke..
wen im down..
owaes dere to cheer me up..
now he will be in camp like 5 days in a week..
im sureli gonna disturb MUMMIE RIL..
lalalallalaala..
be good MAN k dadie?
plish contact me every weekend..
if not..!
haha
BLACKIE WAN,im gonna miss u too..
its like mcm susah nah nk kip in touch
afterall with wad had happened..
hmm..
dun wurie..
im still owaes dere for ya no matter wad happen..
jus beep me lah..
if wanna hangout..(tel the rest den we hangout k?)
muax to both of u..

i realised life is not easy..
nor its difficult..
it jus how you u tackle the situation in ur life..
it like almost the same as wen u flies kite..
u nid to know wen n how to fly the kite on the desire wind..
it seems simple..
but wen u face the challenge..
baik uh!
haha

i feel like im putting my fate on god's hands..
i jus dun give a shit on planning everitink..
wen i planned..
i will start to remember the past..
den will cry to slip..
so better not..
must just let it be..
as saying goes..
"aper nk jadi jadi lah!"

too much memories really kills me inside.
just ystd i saw footprint of my patient..
reminds me of it..
nah..
gooddnnnniiiteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeess

ps:MAY I MISS U?

can i dream of u..
if not..
adlest u dream of me k?
;)

♥rai ralphena♥

miss the VIP of mi life

2009-09-02T18:29:00.007+08:00

STOP!!!

PAUSE

CLOSE UR EYES.

WHO DO U SEE?

well i see mi love ones..

mi family

mi parents

mi sibling

mi JOHNNY DEPP(nk perasan skjp)

mi frens

2-9-09

I WANNA SHOUT OUT HERE!!

i miss a bunch of mi happy pills..

those who wipe mi tears wen i cried..

those who share the laughters with me wen im happy..

those who tahan with mi hyperactive-energetic adrenaline rush..

those who tried hard to understand this fcuking attitude of mine..

wah!

i love u all lah..

i miss these 2 lovelies babies..

i do have others..

but these ones r greatly significant to me..

i see them growing for about 3yrs..

andAND the moments dey called mi names..

hugg me..

its feel so warmth..

no wonder dey said..

kids r healing tool in ur life..

i totally AGREEd with dat..

how i wish dey still remember "auntie rabia"

i owaes love them like mi own(chey!)

i miss both of these guis..
they are owaes dere wen i nid them..
but now?
dun wurrie..
i wont disturb u bois again k?
=)
tanx for being the relax-chill buddies..
not oni 2 bois..
actuali dere r andrew-ayam-din-(nie dulu semua lepak bwh blok p skrg masi jugak lah!)
serius uh..
dey are fun loving pple..
helped me wen me n sum1 quarrelled lik WWIII
HAHA!
JUS MISS-ed our lepaking session esp u bois singing jiwang..

well this mat niggaz

if i talked about the bois must also talked

about this blackie..

its like how many weeks oredi we r doing our lives separately..

but still i no longer hold grudges or so watever..

if others tink im not fair to him.

den dats it..

i have no comments..

i do treasure him..

but aite now as a close in mi heart but not as a lover..

geddit?

tak paham sudah..aku pun tk suruh korg paham..

gonna mish him wen he masuk camp nnti..

for heaven sake called me so we can hangout bfr u go in..

i seriusli miss-ed the lil babes of jyss

sorry babes if i oni post this pic aje(aku post all of us,skali terdelete so malas nk add)

im kinda down wen everitime we plann to mit up..

mesti ader je baper org takle..

i mean we r grown ups ladies..

andAND i kinda understand everyone's busy..

but nnti klu da kawin mcm mana?

aku pun tau aku one of them yg slalu busy p..nah..

jus hopefully we can mit up one of the very day to have all of us COMPLETE!!

ishk geram lah..

i miss u babes the most cos we went tru thick n thin in sch..

zaman SUPER DUPER AWESOME kiter..(sape boleh challenge seh)

watever it is..

aku SKRG free..(tak semestiny aku free 24/7 so we can have an outing..not RAYA outing itu tk termasuk list kiter..itu MMG wajib!lol)

remember dat u babes r owaes in mi mind n heart..

muax!

this lovely lady over here..

is mi gorgeous gf..

DYLA MONSTER!

haha

i love her..

she's like mi other half..(bagus lah tu ..sama pendek n sama cute)

she basicallie awesome..

and I jus hope dat GUI reli wan n love her..

or else i smack muka kau pai pecah!

ystd mit her buka-ing

so CLASSIC~

mkn kt park..

haha..

i jus hope we can b forever mcm gni..

kau lah ratu hatiku..

haha

mi bff maksim..

its like barely more den a mth we mit with each other..

all because of sumting happened..

and we r damn busy with our social life..

till we have no time for each other to berborak n berjenaka..

i jus hope hes doin fine with his life..

esp with his lovelife..(aper nk jadi u?carik btol2..jgn merepek2 nye.lol)

of course..

miss him..

he's another half of me(beside dyla)

dyla is the gal..

maksim is the gui..

in mi life..

cukup paham..

hais..

hope mit ya soon

(but i reli dun noe wen it gonna be..)

cos both of us like so busy like nobody business..

sianx

this gui!

I miss him too lah!

great companion..

but not great bf to be(haha!jk)

used to hangout with him

but recently no time..

all mayb aku yg malas nk plan ngn dia..

haha..

but we du contact..

adlest better den nuting..

hes a good fren..

esp wen u nid help..

hes owaes dere to help u..

even if in studies..

jus appreciate that GOD make me noe him..

how can i forget this shak baby of mine..
she awe jus like her name..
=)
never ever underestimte a person..
i tot she minah ke..
skali shes not(same goes to her on me)
haha
muky!MUKY!
tanx for letting me knowing her..
i love u n her k?
haha..
its has been a long time seen i nampak dia..(d last time was with her n frens at whitesands)
still not enuf for us..
should reli hangout soon..
i miss ya..
n definiteli miss the esah n eton!

last BUT not least..
these r the people dat mi life happy in sch..
so far aku syg uh drg bla kt skola muka aku mcm siak..
tetap drg gila mcm aku jugak..
AKU MISH ASH!!(sorry tk post gmbr kau)
i mish siting beside drg in lectures.
miss eating tgther outside(pizza hut-nasi ayam penyet..)
hais..
miss mi taitais..
miss makcik..
miss minah aku
miss syg aku..
miss bff kiter(zul!!!)
miss semua org uh..

i guess i should really stop here!
byk sgt mish2..
menyampah..

p APER aku tau..
aku MISS johnny depp agi rabak dri korg(sowie)
andAND also ROMEO..
APER CITER NIE?
hahahahah..

ps:i wanna mit u but damn it.i hate it uh.da pape uh.

jump peeps!weeeeee

♥rai ralphena♥

jus wanna hide sumwhere

2009-08-31T23:17:00.002+08:00

isn't the scenery really amazing?

how i wish i were dere right now..

with my lovely johnny depp..

yadahyadah..

we all noe hes married with kids..

so wads wrong..?

im jus wanna have him around..

hes hot..

with that looks and charming smile..

intelligence of course!

melts mi heart like no other guis can ever do dat..

if there is..

i will give u $50..

serius..

im not joking..

(except CASANOVA-STMF- r not allowed.oopps sorry!)

well jus now break fast at LEISURE PARK MALL..

like cekik darah lah..

haha..

malas nk elaborate..

bought FD4..

weee..

NOT REALLY AWESOME..!

but still manageable..

3/5?

jus love the intestine terkuar2..
but hate wen the kepala tercabut..

like so yucks!

after movie chill skjp den walked to the bustop..

home sweet home since tmrw we all werk.!

pfft..

next movie..

THE PROPOSAL!!!!!!

im soo cant wait to let sum tings go asap..

like production..

its like a lil bit of hectic..

and irritates me to the core..

lol

it gonna rocks man!

haha

wen dis done..

i can have mi own time again..

i wanna hangout with mi lovelies syg..

wanna cry-laugh-scream with them..

love reli kills us silently..

damn it..

but its k..

lukili johnny depp loves me..(k i noe a lil bit tk tau malu)

mi cat KUSH loves me(does he?lol)

everyone love me..

even mi enemies love me..

i bet dey miss me so much dat dey cant resist of takling about me..

ahahhahaah..

(jgn marah..syg u)

i dun noe whether i shld jus let mi life becomes low profile once again..

i guess i should..

nth lah..

damn damn damn..

i jus wished U(yesh kau uh)

sblah aku...

and aku nk merengek..

PUJUK me with DORA k?

hahaha..

ps:if i love sum1..i shld let it go aite?(aite!)

♥rai ralphena♥

lovely day with AWESOME companion

2009-08-30T18:24:00.001+08:00

-I'M JUST A LIL BIT BOTHER BY ur action!

please uh..

ask me to move on..

den i really move on..

den u kip telling everyone about me..

tanx alot..

do i do that to u?

yesh u can tell them ur story..

but wen they listened..

do they listened to mine?

i dun mind if they wanna degrade-bickering me..

but adlest heard the 2 of us ferst..

so the berat sblah!

i dun care uh if u PEEPS hating me-loving me..

i jus da lali uh..

klu korg tink im BAD..

den up to u lah!.

u decide..

ystd was fun!

although damn tyred..

still can smile..

can i have johnny depp?

;)

went to school for cca..

helped the costume part..

at 2pm blah with lysa..

went to bugis..

got our stuffs den we off quickly since i have to mit mummie ril buka puasa..

so at 5 reached hm..

at 6 plus out from hse..

so u can imagine..

washup-dressup

mit mummie ril at 18 chefs..

and she complimented mi looks..(tanx babe!)

i guess im contented with mi life now..

we had our food as usual..

and the org laki served kiter kip looking at me..

pfft

we talked n talked..

den walked around the mall..

after dat..

bid goodbye and den headed to town by bus..

just to take mi sweet time reaching dere..

since mi fren finished werk around 10plus..

we bought 2 tix.

FD N DISTRICT 9..

but FD was given to the lil bro..

so left with DISTRICT 9..

and the show is 4am..

so we go and watched MAN U vs arsenal..

i noe MAN U won..

by hook or crook..

so jgn nk jealous k?

haha!!

GIGGS makin hensem eh?

lol

den at 3 mkn at kedai mkn..

ate mee seafood..

yummy!lol

the show was..

hmm k uh..

4 out of 5..

quite touched actually..

den by 6 aku lek skjp den blah uh..

aku tyred!

sok ATTACHMENT lah sei!!!!

cannot escape..

konfirm boring!

lol

im soo gonna watched THE PROPOSAL..

and FD!!

TAK KISA..

klu tk aku nangis..

hahahah..

can i say here?

i mish babi.

haha..

F.C.U.K.E.D u

ps:if wanna comment or so wateve..jus click comment at the end

TO:

dadie yan:we shall mit u..miss ya owaes..

mummie ril:should hangout reli soon again

dyla gf:i love u owaes..mit up k?

yat-mar-makcik-zul:nk buka sama2 must plan early2..

lil sista(alisa-erin-lina-mira): kiter mit but korg plan k?lol

rai ralphena

pics uploaded already!!

2009-08-28T14:45:00.002+08:00

hey peeps!

sum of u guis kip asking me wen to tagged pics in fb!

so the reason is..

IM TOO LAZY..

esp nid to tagged ur name..

so jus drop by to my multiply.com k?

http://ralphena.multiply.com

im tyreed-packed with dates-cant wait to mit dadie yan-

cant wait to have movie marathon-cant wait to mit the rest-

TO RIDHWAN:

if u wana mit bfr u go in..

gimme a kol k bebey...

miss u as usual..

but not more den dat..

well gonna mit nenek later..

waiting dis lil sis of mine to sms..

mcm hantu..

tak tau nk alik uma..

berkepik je bwh ketiak matair..

kawin kan cepat2 lah...

susah kan org je..

lol~~~

k da aku blah pun cantik!

HURHUR

ps:u noe i noe..we have that ting for sure!~